I kept crying and asking him why why why what did i do wrong?i gave him everything i could offer, love care time, but why did it still happened?i broke down and cried and ask him to take the pain away, repeatedly, but it wasnt helping and i asked him why isnt the pain going away over and over again. losing control bawling crying it just hurt too much i felt so numb i wanted to leap of the building. the thought of it was very satisfying and i could feel it. but i didnt and here i am now and i wish i did so

i dont want any of your pity