I rate my happiness today as 4/10, one day, ill get 10/10

Today, i got a bad start to the day. I was so sad, that i sat infront of the mirror and stare at myself, despite knowing that i am late meeting nandyhini. I couldn't helped myself? &while getting ready i slipped and knocked myself on the table and i just sat there, staring. but in 2mins i got up, and im glad. On the way to cityhall, i was just, like dead? So yeh i was late, and then wernt to chill for starbucks and people watched and coz they were giving out free starbucks, so we looked at those really kiasu and eager ones. haha.

Kinda jobhunted, and got snubbed by yogoru, "Oh we're only hiring above 18", with a Blair look. asshole. i thought i was working today at 6? then when i went there, june was there, and she was like surpirsed to see me, coz i WASNT SUPPOSE TO BE WORKING TODAY. so i was like, fucked up. seirously.i was on the verge of crying. i was already having such a bad day? then i called ger, and she was busy, and obviously didnt call gail coz she was at work and she cant go out anymore. and i didnt wanna call nandhyini coz she was alrdy on the way home.so i called him? and then i started crying,and blurted everything out. coz earlier in the dya i was upset over him and rather confused? he told me to meet him, but i didnt want to, i didnt wanna rely on him when i cry, although i really want to? so i abruptedly hung up. i know, im stupid, but i kinda felt proud of myself for not relying on him? sigh? i felt so dumb.

I met best and best never failed to cheer me up. teeet. ily.

Tell your heart a million times tht i was nvr at fault, it would nvr agree with you.

I didnt check my phone every 5mins today. maybe i did for awhile, but i think i checked every15mins instead? which is improving? i hope, its still a baby step

Now i know, im nt gg through alone, almost everyone is there for me.ily'all thank you

sometimes, i still wish i had someone there to hug me when im down. when i cried today i really wish he was there to comfort me. but fat hope yea? im sure sometimes everyone would feel that after a day of falling down so much, you'd wanna have someone there to hug you to tell you everything's gonna be okay... i hate that feeling of pineing for him

I have to remind myself that God would nvr let me go. i closed my eyes tdy and saw Jesus hugging me today and telling me everything's alright and it will be soon over. thank you Lord
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OH AND GUESS WHAT! IM GOING TO CATCH ANGELS&AIRWAVES!!!!!!!!!!! I THINK MY 4OUT OF 10, 3 CAME FROM THIS, THANKS G&J!!!!!!!!!1

Spotted, S screaming her heart out