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wishwishwish upon a shooting star that someone will come and take me away to the moon, and im still hoping it's you. sigh, why'd u have to change so much... hurtsadfuck

&sigh, tournament starts 13th feb. i wont be able to pplay, i was thinking it'd be at the end of feb., maybe i might be able to play.sigh but fat hope now): its my last yr and i cant play. why!??! why didnt this happen during june or something or after tournament?!):

where are u when i need you

&i pick up the phone and dial your number bt when it comes to the last number i tremble and put my phone down instead. i wish i had the courage to call and then maybemaybe,just maybe, ill get to hear your soft and caring voice comforting me, or maybe ill get the fucked up one. sigh. i miss old you