Avoid

I feel like avoiding everyone and just lock myself up at home. and yes maybe switch off my phone but im waiting for the jobs i applied for to call me. gah

I went job hunting with my sis tdy at vivo, i kept getting rejected, "Hi are you hiring?" "oh no,sorry." "okay thanks." I got tht like almost a million times today. fuck man.. so i did fill up like 3 or 4 forms tdy and im just waiting for them to call now. however im waiting for a cafe to call, coz it seems veyr promising and she seems quite pleased during the interview. im praying and hoping tht i'd get hired coz i fucking need a job badly, no not the cash, but the time i have, i hate lazing around it just makes me uncomfortable. sigh.

Im really bored. like i kept asking myself, So whats next? like everyday. sick of that, give me soemthing to look forward to... it used to be him but now i just dont know anymore? there's really nothing left.

Mystery jets,yes no?

I hate that fear in me, so overpowering... that fear of losing someone. it consumes me slowly and then, Who am i again?
fuck.