I miss you so much it hurts me i just wanna cry i feel so numb i feel so crappy and i just wanna ask what happened to us?

Im choosing to believe that it is not that we're fading

But i find it so hard to be in this anymore, its so tiring with all that pretending and i cant keep up anymore

So guess what im doing? Im building a wall around It so if it happens again.... It wouldnt be that bad, yes?

However im not succesful..
Yet.