"Let your loved ones go, if they come back, their true, no point holding back on those who wanna leave."

my heart aches but i dont wanna feel like that anymore, i dont wanna hurt you physically and mentally, i dont wanna have that scary image of me crying and begging you anymore, when all you do is yell at me and want me away from your life, i hate anger, fuck anger, fuck sadness

im all stressed up, yes im stressing for O's alrdy, im sad for gail, im sad over my parents, im sad over love, im sad over my life. fuck that, i dont want all these fucking sadness, i wanna be happy, i wanna be happy, i have to go through this obstacles no matter what, i have to force myself into these, this is life, life is fucked up, yes its not a fucking bed of roses, its full of thorns to prick you till you bleed, to make you suffer, then sometimes when you're lucky, you dont gt pricked, you dont bleed, and yes its easier said that done, but fucking just live with it, its life, its fucked up

im tired, im upset, im hurt, im stressed, im sorry for everything ive done
i love you very much but worse comes to worse, ill let you go, coz if you come back, we're true

sigh actually i dont even know if i can do this? im pretending so much, God help me

i hope, you come back...