Please dont bother reading, i jsut felt like expressing on form of words, and i have no where else to write it.

Sigh. i dont ever wanna fall in love again. i wish i was smart enough to know right from wrong, to see whats coming and all the shortcomings. im afraid i cant take it much longer. ive been happy for the longest time from what i can remember,but recently ive started crying quite abit again and i really dont wanna go back there. im really sad. i dont wanna give my heart to anyone anymore. i dont wanna cry though im trying hard to fight back those tears now. trying hard to pretend. i wish i was storng like 2 weeks back. i wish i build my wall higher and didnt stopped building half way for you to climb over to take control of my heart once again. i dont wanna let you break my heart all over again, it just got better, it jsut got healed, sigh. i know im not and nvr gonna be the perfect gf, i once told you that, i know im no where close to it,but ill try my best to come closest to it. seems like it will nvr happen. im sorry baby. maybe you do need someone else.

i wish i was strong once again to let you go without crying