You know sometimes i try so hard but it all adds up to nothing?

I try pleasing you and sutff but sometimes u dont even appreciate it... im jsut sad that im choosing to spend the day with you guys but you guys treta it as nth. yeah its a special dya to me but maybe not for your guys. you guys just think that its nothing and it can be cancelled anytime right? and you tell me not to be upset... so what am i suppose to feel... seriously?

and then i try so hard to wanna make things better but it doesnt seem to be working.. im a failure am i? maybe i really shd let you go. maybe you need someone else instead of me.. i tried calling you but it doesnt seem to be working cause you dont even care anymore. seriously im just so tired of this fuck.

where are you when i need you.......