Im so fucking tired already

I have no idea why you must leave, so many problems. are you just gonna run away from reality? leaving this behind? no it wasnt where u firts put it, you're gonna leave it in the middle. Okay i know, maybe you want a band that will make tremendous improvement, ya im the one tht sadly is pulling the whole band down. then jo said it wasnt abt the drums, it probably meant me. right? why cant we put personal stuff away, the band has ntohing to do with it. look what we've brought to the band.. causing everyone to e so miserable, especially you and me. im the one that is the most hurt, i cried the whole night before going to sleep. my eyes are weighing a fucking ton now, nose block. played so moodless during training that i think im nt gonna be starting 7 alrdy. i hardly even speaked. coach asked me twice why i was behaving like that, hah. i dont like it just so u know...

im tired, really am. feel like im sick and muscle aches everywhere. can i not go to school or not?

I wish everything is back to normal please...... i love you guys so much. lets not do this, we can make it through...

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