There goes my hero

2009-02-18T02:52:00.002+08:00

Im starting a new life

starting with,
trying out,
exploring,

HXC baby!

surprise surprise...

bye.

2009-02-18T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, this song makes me happy, my baby pharrell is in it :-)

i went out with michelle and there was supposedly jamming and the only movie avaliable tht could end before 6 was valkyrie ahahah so we watched it la, and mich kept complaining it was boring. i thought it was fine but kinda draggy. hehe. and half way during the movie jo said jamming was cancelled.... argh. so when we came out of the theater we decided to watch another movie, love matters.haha idk why, we just felt like watching movies. hmm so i went home at 10.

Haha, oh and khai? good luck with your new girl. i'd rather cry now.

this is gonna be my last post for letsflyprettyeyes. coz prettyeyes died and flew away ehhe. changing link, dont ask me for unless i give it to you,thank you! bye

2009-02-17T00:54:00.009+08:00

oh and guess what, i think im finally able to let go, becoz, i gave up! hah
wooh samantha welldone ha

I LOVE TENNIS AND MY AWESOME COMPANY! :] JAMMING TMRW AND MY ARM IS ACHING.BOO.

2009-02-16T16:08:00.013+08:00

Drowning ship.
I'll find you somewhere, show you how much i care(:

Happy 1st birthday Koen!

Back to my first love, pharrell baby

HAHAHAHA. pharrell williams laa, saw this n.e.r.d video and start screaming, i havent seen him for a long time. ahh imy baby. hhaha!

I have so many pictures to upload from ytd.gah im sitll in the midst of resizing it..

ah kay im finally done. ytd was koen's birthday so we all met up at novena, gail's aunt place or something.they were using the function room. so anyway, just chilled and caught up with gail and zy, miss them all. i brought my dslr hahahaha and we played with all the lighting shiat. let the pictures speak for themselves, fuhh

this photo looks good eh, hehehe, looks professional haha! (the 4th one)

Hahaha look at this! look at my face. im just playing hehehe. its a hair band anywya, im acting like a nowadays hahaha! hippie band shiatxz rawkxz hahaha! kk go laugh

I like this picture(: hahah not the person HEHEH but the way yours truly took it. HAHA!

enjoy!and yeah i love all of you! miss you all alrdy, had a blast althought lennon and james werent there. ahh.

k im waiting for ger and james to come over for tennis. lose that fats baby! taaa!

imy.butbutbut oh no we're dead.yes go on,ignore me ignore me.right now im hanging on to, whaat? oh spite! there was even nth to hang on to.
so, you see, im falling...

There goes my hero, watching as he goes..

2009-02-13T12:24:00.002+08:00

Mend me, then break me, then mend me again..........

Haha hey! im making use of the company's resources.hehehe. i didnt go for lunch today.. coz i had breakfast & its my last day today. although its quite short but i will miss it here. i like the people here. very pleasant and friendly although their all highranked(?i think) haha. this guy, Ariff just came to me and shaked my hand after 3 days. hahaha. he said he only always smile but dotn nkow my name. yeh so everyone is like that. i had alot of that yesterday and the first day, from cassandra, ying tze blahblah, not that you know or care, but id just like to write it down. &everyone is 20+ 30+ and so on, the youngest is 20, which is cass. so i am youngest hehe. oh they might extend me till next thurs? to the event day, and ill be doing registration!!1yay! anything but calling would do. hahaha. wow that will be awesome.

Im listening to mew again and blogging, chatting with ger. shes taking half day): so after 1 ill be all alone to countdown myself. ): blah. i cant wait for tonight! hehehe. and tmrw is val's day! im spending it alone. ahahha, i want to stay home and sleep. its just a stupid cliche day.not that i dont have anyone to spend it with but i just dont want to. hehe. and sunday, the clique minus lennon will be here. awww i miss lenny! ill be alone amongst the couples. ahh my family friend...

I MISS WHITLEY. random but yeh? I was in facebook looking at roshitha's profile ( yes at work hahah) and i saw our grad day photos.. i miss school, i miss my class surprisngly, i miss my uniform too. ahhh. i feel sad now. ): oh well. its just a phase of life, part and parcel

kay my random and boring post. tada!
comforting sounds

2009-02-12T22:08:00.003+08:00

Worn out torn apart. hectic week for me. :O
instead of lazying around at home.

Saturday? was unexpected? hahaha. i had a waitressing job with sheryl&her friends, which i wasnt looking forward to. but it was really awesome, really fun and and eye opener. banquet kinda work, but my customers were bangalas and china men. hahaha? it was some company having a cny dinner for their workers. so it was really fun, made friends but no contact number was exchanged. it was so tiring, i worked 10hours. my feet was almost 1% to heaven. i had to runalot, touch dirty plates and tables,pour beer/drinks, and it was scary coz the men were cheeky, towards the end of the day they were drunk. i was also a part time beer girl.crazy buggers, all they want is beer.annoying too.but some bangalas were cute.hahaha,&they were rather polite too. i worked untill 1am after drying the cups, cleaning up and keeping of tables and chairs. I enjoyed myself although i almost died of fatigue.

Sunday?Lenny wanted to go out for the last time before he leaves. and also the last time oue clique will have all of us present. it was fun, we had bowling and joan and adeline joined us too.yes then we had yuki yaki? which was expensive and i think i only ate like 5 bucks worth.we stole alot of pudding though.hehehe.

Monday?sent lennon off.we all miss him already.we were the only group of people crying.he cried too. but seems like he likes aussie, from his blog. thats awesome. we had fun at t3 running screaming and stuff. sigh, but still, take care lenny! <3

Tuesday,i met ameera and mich, and they invited affandi along. we just chat and stuff, i had to go hom when i just came out of the hse coz i needed to take my bank book for my contract. damn? so i had to go to recruit express to sign a 3 day contract to work at ncs. mum found me the job so i wont laze aorundat home.. haha. after some DELAYS at orchard, the health and modelling shit, hahaha i met ger and james at adelphi and went to penin to get some stuff, (its a surprise(: ) and went for dnner. walked to clarke quay again hahaha, after very longgg, we joked like crazy like last time, james was acting as a blind man, in which he is very good at, besides being fat. hehehehehe chill and home

Wed, start of work.went to work with mom. i only had 4 hrs of sleep and was suffering like crazy. my job was to call all the customers to ask if they'd come for this event tht ncs are organising. they targetted all the bigshots so i have numbers to the prime minister's office. minister of state and all the gov companies. hahaha.. i felt intimidated calling all the ceos/directors? it was scary. so after lunch i dared to use ebuddy and germaine accompanied me. hehe, so i was counting down to 6, and i hate the telephone so much now. ): some of the PAs were rude, most of them were pretty nice, although some of them sound like they just WOKE UP.... HAHAHHAA, (get it?). some were pretty indirect to me, which was in other words, no im not coming. hahaha. i slept at 10pm, first time in since idk how many months.hahaha. i was sooooo tired

Tdy, my job was slack. i was really tired despite sleeping for 9hrs. my supervisor wasnt here and the whole morning i coldnt use my room coz they needed for a conference meeting.haha so yay. chatted with my colleague, shes only 21 and she is a marketing executive.haha wow? soooo, after lunch i couldt take it and made tea coz i was so tired. started calling but i cheated some hehe. i surfed the net alot too..hahaha & called ger.hehe. i finished the list of all the IT people by 5 and surfed the net hahaha. tmrw i have to call all the people who are not related to IT.(why do i call when its NOT RELATED?idk.) well, so far none said yes for this two days. but there are alrdy 50 people which im pretty glad about, however their not in our list. anyway, i was so glad when this guy i called, he reffered me to someone else and so i called him. he told me to sent him an email for the infomation and he will reply., and he did! he was the first i called that wnated to come. hahaha.. so yeh tdy wasnt that bad. i cant wait for tmrw to end... but i heard they might extend my contract, well so long as i dont have to call anymore! *screams

okay such a long post.sry ya. squeezing 5 days into 1. ahh i have to sleep soon. adios!

And i decided to dislike you now

2009-02-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

Upset,angst

Big mouth?telling facts that arent important,and skipping the ones that are important.facts that should be told.im annoyed.pissed.argh. go fucking get a life.kay __

Busy4 days or so.hahaha im still lazy to blog about it. i am working at ncs for 3 days hehehe. $$$ and wasting time hehehehe. yayayayyaa! i can get alot of things off my mind.and hmmm, thank you Lord. and hehe, saturday, which is valentines day (fuck that) heheh im spending it alone, yipeeee hehehe. alright! &starting of mon, i might be working at raffles place haha. alright sexiness.

k bye.nbcbs.

2009-02-10T02:08:00.001+08:00

I said, "Farewell,till we meet again."

Given up love,or if it was even there in the first place?
I was holding on to something that was never there.

Now hush,dont cry

2009-02-09T01:02:00.002+08:00

Why am i always caught up in complications?
Courting death every now and then
I keep getting burned but i still continue playing with fire

Stupidity.

i had two long days.ill blog tmrw.

2009-02-07T00:54:00.002+08:00

I just checked out postbox ep trailer and my hair is standing lke crazy and i have no idea why. cant explain why but i feel good listening to their songs. fucking shit. i cant wait for 21st feb for their ep launch!, hehe check out their myspace. www.myspace.com/postboxband

Take me to the disco ball

2009-02-06T23:28:00.001+08:00

Bored to my wits
Extremely extremely lazy.

fucken shit
@!#!#!@!4#%#$

2009-02-05T23:10:00.003+08:00

Bad day..

Went to raffles city after a phone call from my aunt to go for job interview for robinsons, the one as the expo. i took a cab there coz i was lazy and blah, i went to find aunt and she brought me to the queue. i entered by the front so with every turn i took, the queue got longer and longer. i got intimidated and felt scared. idk why, i jsut left the queue. no i didnt even queue. i just told aunt that i dont want it, and she asked me to come earlier tmrw, which is 2pm. i have no idea what to do. and i was alone. tried calling some people but everyone was busy. i felt like melting and be a part of the ground. i didnt know whre to go. felt lonely. walked around and i asked myself, "wtf am i doing?", so i left. i took to serangoon and i was so absorbed and upset that i missed my train station and stopped at kovan and took another train back to serangoon. fuck?

then aunt texted me and tlel me to call this guy to ask for a job, and i called and he rejected me dmanit. i gave up there. seriously. wehn she texted me i felt maybe there is hope, but when my phone read "disconnected" after a few secs of waiting for thim to pick up, it died off. fucking shit.

I know its just a small issue but i felt so fucked up.
Madness.

2009-02-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

I watched live N Loaded just now and i was like whaada. haha? but some acts were like, woah.heh.. next week's my turn to go hehe. i kinda have doubts abt gg now coz yeah the crowd..hmmm. saw a few familiar faces/monkeys in the crowds. hehe.. but i really wanna catch plain sunset. so yeah!

i stayed home today and fat fits again and went to the gym to work out, suprising?

i am eating yogurt which is flavoured passion fruit and its surprisingly nice hehe, eat yogurt. no ice cream! heh low fat

anyway i jsut downloaded the new msn msnger and its so nice hehehe. okay whatever im a mountain tortoise

kay this post is lame and random whateverrrrr, im jsut bored

2009-02-03T02:18:00.005+08:00

Annoyed, Irritated

With the world.

and especially myself.

Mood swings

buzz off

2009-02-01T22:19:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, long day which turned out pretty well. haha. met Ger at 345 instead of 330, she was late although i was late. hehe. we went to bugis street hahaha, i thought i could find some hidden treasures but all i found was ah lian and trendy wankers nonsense. hehehe, sorrry. so we got bored, and i... brought her to sungei road! hahaha. she was so fascinated she got amused by everything. the wires the phone the things they sell hahaha, it was so funny. she bought something from this aunty which i bought from last time too. hahaha we pitied her so we gave her a dollar more. hehe (: *angelic hahaha..

So we left and met J and K and head on to my place for tennnnisssss, and blah it was kinda boring. kinda tensed too.idk why. we brought down 6 balls, in which we lost 5, got back 4, and lost idk how many any left with 1. hehhhhhhhhhh. damn. So L came and at 8 we left blahblah went to chomp2 agaaaaaain. frigging full man. cabbed to lennon's place and chill. same old same old.

Happy birthday H

this photo is funny haha look at my face

then slacking at lennon's.

2009-01-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

Jumper

6.45am, 30/01/09 - moe: SAMANTHA THAM YUAN LING, you are posted to
REPUBLIC POLY, Integrated Events Management (R28) under 2009 JAE.

Kay so stop asking.

Which was my first choice, so yeah, i guess if i think postively this is the only good deal tht came out of my o levels. hah? so my interview was successful. guess i was lucky, no i am blessed, coz most of my friends got into horrible courses. so yeh...

2009-01-30T00:44:00.006+08:00

Have been busy lately

So ytd, it was Kevin's birthday. and before that i met ameera and michelle, haha and we chilled and stuff coz i havent seen mich for a long time hehe. so went to the library cafe to eat/drink and walkedwalked blahblah we were so tired, idk why im tired too? haha.

so at 5 i went to city hall to meet L and K but damn they were late and i was late alrdy. so i got annoyed hahaha and went shopping with the company of germaine on te phone hahaha. i bought a pair of heels coz i thought iw as wearing too slackish since ger told me she was wearing dress and james was wearing nice. i was just wearing a sweater and jeans hahaha. so i bought a pair of nice heels to wear hehehe. and for once i saw lennon in jeans :O hahaha so yeah. headed down to msq yuki yaki but it was packed so we went to seoul garden. i ate little the rest ate like soo much.

haha so anyw me and ger planned on getting K a bday cake so we had to run to swensens in my frigging heels so i changed halfway hahaha back to my flats and ran back. so the cake was like jostled (hahahaha exaggerating) coz we afraid kevin would see us so in the end we asked james to get one of the waitress out to take the cake. so yay! hahaha. thn we were eating eating the chocolate fondue hahaha and they tried mixing chocolate and cooking nonsense, wasting food in other words. the manager came out with the cake and everyone started clapping and singing Happy Birthday hahaha, kevin's face was priceless hahaha then he started clapping and pointing to lennon hahahaha. so yeah, it was really fun. snapped alot of photos and yeah. here's a full account on what happened coz Gail wasnt there(she in japan) and yeh she pretty much would want to know wht happened. (: so went shopping a bit and home

Tdy, mich foreced me to go training with her. and i didnt really enjoy coz i dont like the new team. i miss the 07 team)): booo. kayyyy so yeah as usual she snapped photos and snapped non stop with ehr pinky camera hehe. so blah, my shorts was so tight ahhahaha i couldnt move i felt so uncomfortable in my own skin. blah. so lazy la. so went for dinner with mich and ger joined us. had jamming at the flower shop hahaha. its a small room which has drums and amps yeh so we got to jam for free. we played Hot n Cold successfully, and a bit of Put Your Records On coz kent didnt learn again, blah. so yeah it was pretty good haha. my arm was aching like hell though..so we left at 930 and icekimo.boring! blahblah catch up &stuff.

Results are tmrw morning.scary mary.i heard its btw 8am-11am? haha im gonna wake up at 12pm so i dont have to stare at my phone and get scared. haha.

Happy birthday kevin!

Hahahaha i was really full...

Lennon's present to kevin, sweet huh ^^

Ily all(: plus gail. we miss you(:

2009-01-28T00:10:00.002+08:00

I want to let go yet i want to hold on

Im getting extremely extremely fat. ): i ate so many pineapple tarts i look like one now. boooooooooo. okayso anyway happ cny everyone. for those of you who have many relatives, good for you, hong bao fest, but for those who dont (like me), live with it. gah. cny is over-rated, cliche nonsense. heh i sound like a cranky old women

Kay so nth much really. visiting and stuff. trying to forget stuff. blah.

beginning to think that im really ugly. and fucking fat. and did i mention ugly?sigh
omg i loook sooo fatttt in all my pictures i dont feel like uploading)))))))):

2009-01-25T00:09:00.003+08:00

I kept crying and asking him why why why what did i do wrong?i gave him everything i could offer, love care time, but why did it still happened?i broke down and cried and ask him to take the pain away, repeatedly, but it wasnt helping and i asked him why isnt the pain going away over and over again. losing control bawling crying it just hurt too much i felt so numb i wanted to leap of the building. the thought of it was very satisfying and i could feel it. but i didnt and here i am now and i wish i did so

i dont want any of your pity

2009-01-24T02:27:00.002+08:00

It hurts so much. why? i cant cry coz i feel so numb? ill nvr believe you ever again. fuck off

We walked arm in arm
But I didn't feel his touch
A desire I'd first tried to hide,
That tingling inside was gone
And when he asked me:
'do you still love me?'
I had to look away
I didn't want to tell him
That my heart grows colder with each day

When you love so long
That the thrill is gone
And your kisses at night
Are replaced with tears
And when your dreams are on
A train to train wreck town
Then I ask you now, what's a girl to do?

He said he'd take me away
That we'd work things out
And I didn't want to tell him
But it was then I had to say
Over the times we've shared
It's all blackened out
And my bat lightning heart
Wants to fly away

2009-01-24T01:46:00.001+08:00

I fell in love with them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAIL

BLOG TMRW

2009-01-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

I finally found the answer to why i did badly for my o levels even when i studied really hard...
Answer: Im downright stupid.

WWIII starts tomorrow, brace yourself

puffyeyesheavyeyebags,no more prettyeyes,flyfly away

fatso sneaking chocolate out of her bag, looks familiar? yeh its me

2009-01-19T00:42:00.008+08:00

WHY IS EVERYTHING YOUR WAY
Messy

Tennis was cancelled. met up at 5 after some complications that made me kinda annoyed and upset. i called ger and said, "Our clique is broken up." gah, met g and j at bishan and head over to l's place where k was there already. so i came in and said, "Okay crisis, firstly air con please" (coz the weather was so hot) and we sat down and talked fr two hours. and so we sent k off and went to longhouse to eat dinner yumyum and went to icekimo ahahha, and stuff ourselves with ice cream. I miss them all and i miss clique very much, i wish we were same like during the o's. gah, nonsense happenings. watched Meet th spartans and haha, it was entertaining although i watched it before. "I want throwing up to be fun" hahaha. okay so i hope everything's gonna be okay again sigh although chances are very slim?

Anyw abt ytd, sry abt the abrupt post.
Live n loaded at scape with khai and met ameera and lukman there and yeh catched plainsunset hehe imiss them very much. however i also miss the small gigs they hold at scape where not much people come to and i get to stand in front and play a little. i just stood at the side ytd. people were moshing like its some hxc song, cmon la its plainsunset man? get a hang of yourself. and they are like advertising this on channel 5, and they are gonna host a gig at mediacorp (&i gt tix hehehe) and damn their gonna open up local music so that it becomes mainstream, haha?
shit happened and i went with ameera and all and went to bugis haji and heh heh made some new friends, funny people. reached home at 1145 and i enjoyed my day.

liar
peekchaaas

the clique minus Gail WITH the ferrari HAHA

Yes its me in a ferrari and im saying fxck you HEHEHE, jealous!? haha

HAHAHA AND GUESS WHAT WE SAW TWO GRP OF PEOPLE ON OUR WAY BACK, JOACHIM AND HIS SIS AND CHONG DER AND JK WHICH WAS SO FREAKING AWKWARD LA HAHAHA. I KEPT SNIGGERING TO MYSELF, SO MEAN YA> HAHAHAH BUT IT WAS FUNNY. JAMMING SOON! WHEE

k byeeee

2009-01-18T01:29:00.002+08:00

I want to avoid everyone if i can.

liar liars lies why?

plainsunset, 4 songs only, very short. many people. met up with ameera. haji lane. enjoyed.

dada boring

2009-01-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend Maker! (haha awesome) girls please

The adorable super-sensitive quiet guy

Most people dont even know this guy exsists, but you do. He may seem hard to talk to at first, but don't give up once he lets you into his heart you'll see how truely amazing he is and how much love he has for you, he'll be a little too protective sometimes, but you know its only because he's insecure. he doesnt want his heart to be broken so when this happens you have to assure him that your heart belongs to him. after you break the ice with this guy he's all yours

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Im bored so i tried this and i think its so true hahahaha

2009-01-15T22:33:00.004+08:00

MOVE ON

OKay so i got over the face that i didnt do well, okay not exactly got over but i didnt just mop around anymore making noise about why i didnt do well when i studied like crazy. i guess its God's will and everything happens for a reason, almsot a million people tell me that. ahha well thanks for all those who encouraged me to mvoe on, and telling me that you're proud of me, especially my family. they didnt scold me or anything they even comforted me and told em their proud of me, to not cry and helped me choose my courses. thank you mom sis and dad, ily and all the others <3

Kaaaaaay, so i am most probably going to rp and hey i kinda like the school and courses they offer, very interesting. so i hope i get into the course i want and like it there. now im waiting in anticipation for the last week of jan. hehhhh
Looking forward to sat where gonna catch plainsunset after sooooo long and yay sunday, tennis!!!! hehehe. here are peektures for monday and last fri?

Last fri

After results, and the one with k, i just finished crying so i look horrible but i think i look funny so haha enjoy

and then tennis with ger james and geraldine (ger sis) (:

2009-01-14T00:09:00.002+08:00

I feel like crap,sigh

Didnt do well for my o level results. i have no where to go.no idk where to go coz there are limited courses.i lost my job, and fyi tdy was my first day.i needed him bt he wasnt there.fuck?horrible, worse.what is happening, why me? i have no idea. God?\

HELP

2009-01-11T23:40:00.002+08:00

RESULTS ARE OUT TOMORROW. IM AFRAID... my hands are all sweaty now. hahah no, i am excited, all the anticipation. sigh shit i am freaking out

OKAY STOP IT SAMANTHAAAAAA! screams. okay so haha cute right, we're meeting an hr earlier at school to eat school food. red plate, yellow mee, nasi lemak hahahaha. "auntie jia dan!!!!!!!!! "(auntie add egg) hahahaha, always... screams. and yay we finally get to wear unfiorm again. &my smelly old torn and tattered shoes... & my coloured socks. hahaha and my skirt.. gosh i am sick am i!? ahahha.

Soo,ytd,it was a great day for me!(: i went out with khai hehehe, after work, at the pushcart. i was late so had to take a cab down gahhh, and work was so slow i fold paper cranes to past time till 3pm. haha so yeh walkwalk till haji, hehe peach this time but we talked alot abt our future and all that and hehehe, im happy. i hope we do work out and yeah for those of you who are unhappy about it then too bad uh? heh.

k all the best for me, i can do it in Jesus name, amen!(:

2009-01-09T00:46:00.002+08:00

She got sick of reaching out and coming up empty handed. She left a farewell note saying,"May we meet again." We know how this ends.

The flyer job sucked? It was good pay by totally tiresome and horrible. I felt like shit coz everyone ignroed me outside centerpoint. Btw you and me, i went to the toilet to chuck some down the dustbin and might ahve clogged up 1 toilet bowl. oopsie im so sorry. my phone was dead on me, i had nobody to call. i used the payphone next to the construction worker and called me sis and gail. i tried to give out flyers again after going to 3 toilets. i gave up and went to taka coz my sis was there. i jsut stood there and ate the $1 ice cream. then, i started all over again and did the flyers. it wasnt that bad, maybe i jsut needed company. but it was kinda funny seeing some of the people's reaction. my arm aches. sigh. overall i just think it sucked, yet im gg again tmrw. whaaaada?

Going to tp sp and np open hses tmrw with ger james and sheryl. yehyeh. tdy before tht i ahd sucha great day with someone, but it turned out like towards the end. sigh. is this what always happens to us?

LET GO

2009-01-08T00:28:00.003+08:00

Lightning...

12th jan, is officially the results. not that i havent prepared myself,, but i am scared, coz its now official and not the rumours. i know its nothing i can do alrdy coz the results are alrdy done, but gosh i am feeling scared typing this. haha? i think its normal, so calm down

Tyd i went to vivo again with sheryl, and had fun. i finally made an atm card HAHAHA, yes i wanna show off and i felt painful pressing my number in twice tdy, hahaha i hate the bloody atm it makes me spend money!!!!! screams. so we sat down and chat after walking around and i think Giant's 5.99 shirts are quite good, i wanna buy hehe

Thennnn went to gardens to meet the clique for our once a week dinner thingy. at chomp chomp. yehyeh, this time james came so, yay reunion dinner? leny's gonna fly of soon, booo. gonna miss him. so yeh it was short time, we just ate and chat, didnt really catch up due to the lack of time. oh i applied for a hk cafe haha? as a waitress and i think i got the job, its at gardens and its near my hse, 5/hr and can work anyday without any maximum or minimum, cool ya. but i have no idea if its comfirm? the supervisor seems very nice. haha.

got a flyer job tmrw, haha.. its bloody good pay, 8/hr for 3hrs. cool eh. kay!

peeeeekchaaas.

2009-01-07T00:52:00.002+08:00

Below are the details of the gigs! Come on down!!

Jan 9, Friday 6.30pm @ Nanyang Polytechnic Open House
A Vacant Affair & Plain Sunset , hosted by 987FM Soo WeiJan

10, Saturday 1pm @ Singapore Polytechnic Open House
A Vacant Affair & Plain Sunset, hosted by 987FM's Soo Wei

Jan 10, Saturday 4pm @ Republic Polytechnic Open House
A Vacant Affair & Plain Sunset , hosted by Utt

Jan 10, Saturday 7pm @ Temasek Polytechnic Open House
Electrico & Vertical Rush , hosted by Utt

AHHH SHIT? im going to sp and tp on 9th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and plainsunset is playing on 10th. i havent went to a plainsunset gig for sucha long time? eh no, let alone their gig, havent been to any gig for such a long time man. gah

Wheee clique dinner tmrw heh heh, chomps2 here we come to terrorize. hahaha. chomps2?! hahaha chomp chomp la eh. tdy i went out for dinner with the most horrible fatneck, besides gail, hahaha, germaine. and we bloody made lame comments like really really lame ones and screamed at each other.hahaha again, i looked for jobs and applied for 2 tdy. i kinda applied for 1 more but its like aft i fill up the form them said its 4/hr i was like wtfffffff?! & the other one sai applying for the job, you have to look pretty. wtf discriminating shit. i cant do with it man. damnit.

hhaha gah anyw, i reallyreally need a job. damnit. FACEBOOK, IS FUCKEN COOL. hahaha fuck off friendster, make way

love you very muchhhhhhhh

2009-01-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

Avoid

I feel like avoiding everyone and just lock myself up at home. and yes maybe switch off my phone but im waiting for the jobs i applied for to call me. gah

I went job hunting with my sis tdy at vivo, i kept getting rejected, "Hi are you hiring?" "oh no,sorry." "okay thanks." I got tht like almost a million times today. fuck man.. so i did fill up like 3 or 4 forms tdy and im just waiting for them to call now. however im waiting for a cafe to call, coz it seems veyr promising and she seems quite pleased during the interview. im praying and hoping tht i'd get hired coz i fucking need a job badly, no not the cash, but the time i have, i hate lazing around it just makes me uncomfortable. sigh.

Im really bored. like i kept asking myself, So whats next? like everyday. sick of that, give me soemthing to look forward to... it used to be him but now i just dont know anymore? there's really nothing left.

Mystery jets,yes no?

I hate that fear in me, so overpowering... that fear of losing someone. it consumes me slowly and then, Who am i again?
fuck.

2009-01-01T22:10:00.004+08:00

ITS A VERY WORDY POST

HAPPY NEW YEAR, HELLO 2009 GOODBYE 2008

I didnt end 2008 with a big bang, we( me,gail&ger) didnt even countdown, we ended it by brushing our teeth. HAHAHAHA HILARIOUS? i was whining so much about my cramps so we creep down to get some snacks and went up to brush our teeth and when we went into the room, and checked our phones and OH ITS NEW YR ALRDY HAHAHAHA. so funny, and i was momentarily shocked becoz i didnt expect the year to end so quickly?

Kay so, we went to escape, me ger gail zhiyi lennon and kevin. haha escape? yeh i know,kinda lame but it was 8.80 and the rides sucks? hahaha gosh, so pathetic the rides, the only fun ones were viking and go kart, which i sat 3times (viking) and 2times for go karting. hahaha. it was really fun sitting with friends coz u can scream and laugh at other people's faces. hahaha! we also went into the haunted house hhaha which ger didnt even open her eyes and i was laughing coz the manequines scared me hahaha! took some lame rides that gave no thrill but headaches. haha, i had fun, i love ya'll

So anyway,her comes the new year, and here are my resolutions for this year
1. Stay happy,stay close to God,keep all my friends
2. Stop saying so much vulgarities ( hahaha yeah i know you guys will laugh)
3. Get a bloody job, (currently my biggest goal)
4. Do well in my studies, wherever my o results will take me
5. NOT BE SO VULNERABLE

Okay thats all so far.hahhaa. i love 2008 ! here's all the people i wanna thank

Firstly, my family of course,and definitely God for always being there to support me (:

Secondly, my friends which consists of clique and a lot of people but im gonna take some time to list down my pillars of support(:

Germaine, bestfriends for 6years and more to come, love you so much for always being there for me, even when you dont understand, you'll try, and although you annoy the shit out of me some times, HEHE, you're always there to support me& help me during my darkest moments(: ily very much, and guessing as much tht we most probably wont go into the same school): , please take care of yourself, especially knowing how naive you are teehee

Gail, the fattest neck ever, best friends for 2years and more, shorter compared to ger, but still as close. the more sensible one but also the most annoying one, hahah ily very much okay. for always being there for me too during my darkest moments(: i'll nvr forget the times that we annoyed ourselves in class staring at each other hairs and laughing annoyingly(you) and saying "cripsy",hehe actually i hate you hhahaha

Khairul, hmm for being part of me in my whole 2008, although things started getting horrible towrds the end of the year, i'd still like to thank you for being my pillar. ily very much(: ( idk what to say,haha)

Zhiyi, for being so damn annoying although we only know each other for a year. hahah ily very much althoughw e always behave like we hate each other. sorry tht i whacked u on the pirate ship ytd. HAHA. have fun at school tmrw and study hard but dont stress yourself out! and stop calling me 15, coz im 16 alrdy, hehe

Lennon,James& Kevin- for being my company when i was down, i'll nvr forget the times during o's where we mugged our ass off (hahah really) , hope we'll still contact esp when lennon is going to melbourne. and J& K take care of my besties. heheh ily all!

And the rest, people like Nandhyini, Sheryl, Bestie, Michelle, Ameera, Cherrie and etc. All of you, which i only got close to this yr, have been so great, thanks for keeping me company, ilya'll very much & a big thank you for being there for me, love!!!

Here's to wishing everyone that 2009 will be great, teehee

and there's no school tmrw, haha! poor thing eh the rest.hahaha kay photos upload tmrw k, coz there's alotttt

love you

2008-12-31T00:51:00.007+08:00

So take your troubles solo

Haha i listened to a lot of appleseed cast songs and like them now,hehehe. yes thanks to you. anyway i dont feel like blogging,soooo i wont be on tmrw coz im staying over at gail's! gonna wear the la senza pjs she got me for my bday,hahah and gonna stay up all night and eat pizza and talk. hahaha typical! whee slumber party with besties!! & we're gonna go to escape hahaha! wheeeeee

so anyway! went cycling at east coast with best and had a hell lot of a time although we felt sticky and damn tired, we got tired in 20mins and kept resting ever 15mins hahaha! and we also returned the bike 30mins earlier,hahaha! & i finally used my dslr after like idk how long,suddenly miss it and wanna use it, hahaha, kay random. but i nspaped very little. see
kay happy new year in advance!!!!!! love you 2008

boo imy veryvery much and still love you): fuck,stop telling me all that shit tht u still love me and then u say u wanna spend newyear's with someone special,damnit

2008-12-30T00:59:00.004+08:00

Im a firestarter

So it ended again, on impluse or not I'll take it as it is and i wanna let go and move on although each step breaks my heart ):
Coz im a fucking fuck, quoted

I didnt wanna be alone at home, i couldnt sleep again, i only slept for 6 hrs and im wide awake for the whole day): not hungry again too, and tempted to take nonsense. again. its history repeating itself. damnit, i wanna break this fucken cycle. ahhh,maybe whenever i recieve a painful blow from you i'll become like that? damn

Soooo, i went out with Sheryl for the first time since hw many years ago?ahhaha.and with her friends which is people from whitley tht i nvr thought i'd go out with,example crystal. haha and then came lynette and my good old marymount convent school people, daphne shermaine thin and adeline. oh and plus i made a new friend, pei sze. all very nice people.(: its amusing and shocking. hahaha, and we actually had a great time. surprisingly? i never thought it'd turn out like that, hahaha. they took my mind off lots of things,(yes esp you,although i did feel like crying at times), hah, but i enjoyed their company and thankew all very much (:

2008 is ending, in 3 more days. i cant wait for new year's eve coz im staying out woooh, and tmrw, going cycling with bestie. haha

So what nw? Idk what to do. im scared of being alone again. i have to plan my days advance. scares the shit out of me. nothing solid, nothing there. tired of reaching out and returning emptyhanded

This is the end,there's nothing to keep
Its the end of you and me
As the ice comes down, its the end
As the lies come down,its the end
As the tears flows out,its the end
Its the end of you and me

he dedicated this to me when he left, fight song

2008-12-29T00:07:00.003+08:00

I, miss you more then i should....

and it hurts a lot. i can feel the pain. save me, help me

stop it, stop me please?

save them on the way too. please.

2008-12-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

Tired! and lost my cool

Soccer tdy was fun but i fought with someone. she fucking pushed me with two hands when i was tackling her, and i shouted "fuck you cheebai fucking asshole know how to play soccer or not?" and everyone was so shocked damnit, i fucking glared at her, that fucxking lesbian

So i was so pissed i played like shit, just anyhow whack the ball and all th, hahah and i sounded like a minah/ah lian, damnit. im so sorry. so he came and left after awhile oz things werent looking up for us

went to town with michelle and meetup with ameera (2nd outing of the week) hahah, and went to clarke quay to chill and see a too. hmmm just chilled and thats that. boring but enjoyable.

im so fucking brokeeeeeeeee. i miss germaine

painful to see you, coz it is written all over you, "see how much you've missed out on my life?"
everytime you make me believe in you you'd go disappearing on me, everytime i need you you'd disappear or ignore me
pain

kay im so tired i wanna sleep and its only 1055pm! haha/

2008-12-26T11:59:00.000+08:00

Matured, changed

Its funny and pleasant to see someone you havent seen in a few years and then spot all the changes and smile at it, it feels good, haha, really

I think i got the job at the zoooooo! wheeeeee, thanks khai
theres match tmrw!!!!

I am a wreck without you, you're fine without me, dada

imy'all(:
i visited my old memories..&it felt good.

PHOTOS ON CHRISTMAS EVE BBQ, i just got it from gail

2008-12-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone

my party was quite boring, lucky there was Gail. well overall it was okay. i think i put on 5kg. im tired. im sad. im boring.

sorry everyone,again

2008-12-24T00:10:00.007+08:00

FUN

Tdy was a blast. haha, i went out with ameera and michelle, yeh first time, i was late so i met them at 4. and we walked talked eat drink at bugis. and went to orchard coz michelle wanted to buy bag and she bought one smelly one with a pungent smell. hahahaha. and i saw shawn my neighbour at heeren hahaha, and it was so funny cozzzzzzz, he tapped me like 8 times, and i thought it was michelle playing a fool and i didnt bother so ameera pointed behind me and i got a shocked and we kept laughing all the way to the mrt., hahaha, went back to bugis and to haji and tried grape. hehe camwhore like a fucking whore and im lazy to type out everything so yeah basically overall we had so much fun, we went high over nth and laughed alot. haha.

tmrw is christmas eve and i get to see Gail during bbq and auntie jenny, uncle donald and donovan(my baby sitter family) wheeeeee!

Michelle takes so many pictures it scares me!!!!! hahaha shes gonna kill me for that, and the pungent smell bag hahaha

and im also so fucking broke i havent bought any christmas presents at all!!!!!! i left 55c i think. shit. also tdy my line went crazy, i couldnt recieve any calls or msgs at home, i only recieved it when i left serangoon. and went i got home, once i got outta the bus, the line immed cut off when i was on the phone. mom called starhub and now everything's ok but im recieving like msgs frm 10pm only now

OHHHHHHH AND MYSTERY JETS ARE COMING AT I NEED TO BE... 16 TO GET IN WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOO ITS AT ZOUK haha but now i need to find someone to go with......

yay, here are the photos. okay i know it looks the same hahaha but yeah (not in order)

I like the last photo(:

2008-12-22T22:48:00.004+08:00

Flakes

Finally, i dont have to work this week! hahah i am so tired and exhausted. today, i had soccer match early in the morning, and was like abt 30mins early for the first time. yeah had match at mj again and hmm, i was lazy to play! hahaha, told coach i didnt really feel like playing coz im no longer in the team. so anyway, haha im so dark now!!! yay tan. i love cherrie's company anyway. hahaha.

Okayyyyy so i went back to sleep then went out again to follow R to collect photos at little india. ghagaga i was like wtf! little india man(im nt being racist), shit! hahaha but its at bencoolen. so we went to Bugis and chilled and walked abt blahblah. then i met GGGGGGG, hahaha, and we were so lazy so we sat downstairs her office and talked until 7. hahaha. i miss her, i miss gail too(: so we laughed and walked lazily down to central and found a place to eat, which was manhatten fish market. haha we got those romantic spots ahahah and laughed alot and spoiled the ambience of the other couples. hahaha! so we walked around and chilled and all that shit and visited A ahaha! kay luh thats about it. photos!

christmas is coming!!!!!!!!! wheeeee, i havent bought any presents and im so shitttttty

i am finally able to let go... i think... i hope so.

OKay my face is so red coz of the soccer thingy.haha.

2008-12-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

Today... I had work. and had a bad headache. and i met a new colleague which told me alot the bad side.. of my boss. and i hit sales, of 1000.

Today... I was looking out for you... because i thought you'd come, like ytd

Today... I finally felt hungry at 5pm. and i ate rice. and i felt annoyed &guilty with myself afterwards.

Today... i had a lonely night. i felt irritated when i see 2 person tgt. i think it was coz i was jealous.

Right now... I miss someone.

I know its ironic, cause i really feel lonely. but i switched off my phone, coz i dont want anyone to contact me.

im sorry that im behaving like that. again.

i wish i could let you out of my heart so id nvr see your name again

2008-12-20T00:14:00.001+08:00

I FINALLY FELT HUNGRY & TIRED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!11

OH and thank you to everyone who cared

2008-12-19T01:07:00.005+08:00

It hurts to know the truth... i dont want to know the truth. hide me from it. im a loser, i like running away from reality.

im sorry that im so emotional.
i am trying to eat. i ate bread.
i finally managed to sleep. kinda? i took unecessary drowsy medicine to make myself sleep and i went to exercise to make myself tired.

i dont deserve anyone.,really.sry.

pining for the one that doesnt deserve me, rejecting the one that pines for me and obviously deserves much better

2008-12-17T22:19:00.003+08:00

FearAbhorrencePresentimentQualmAversionConsternation
Playing with fire.

I havent slept for more then 3 hrs. since ytd, i couldnt
I havent ate for more then 24 hrs, untill i met ger and james to go lau pat sat

I cant eat nor sleep i feel wasted although i didnt do anything and i have the urge to take nonsense.
help me

I dont know who i am anymore. this person in me is not me. please im calling out for help, hear my desperation. Im scared of myself. this monster in me....

Yknow you're just gonna get burned, fucking burned.

2008-12-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

Sick

Again im sick.like every month and im getting sick of it. my throat is so dry and its so painful.

Anyway, i watched twilight today. and.. it isnt up to the books i should say. i kinda think the filming was quite badly done. angles were limited and shaky. hahah okay shouldnt complain too much. and they changed quite alot of the parts? i prefer reading it instead. ah oh well.

Yesterday.ahh.shouldnt talk about it.

Anyway happy birthday khai rul (17 december)

IVE BEEN SEEING SO MANY PEOPLE I HAVENT SEEN IN AGES AND IT MAKES ME WANNA LAUGH coz some are just no different and it is really hilarious. okay i dont make any sense but its an inside joke(:

This sounds cheesy and corny but Fate brought us tgt again.

2008-12-15T00:01:00.004+08:00

I hear a pen drop and a nervous heartbeat

Okay i wasnt kidding abt my bday sucking. thank god i had gg to keep me from being depressed. anyway, ytd was really exhausting but satisfying. i had futsal tournament and ahaha, i played..hmm sastifying? i didnt get to play in the senior team and got pissed with coach actually coz i was actually in the team then i got changed wiht aisha for the last team. which is the mixmix one la. hahaha, but anyway i was wronged, they are really great teammates, which consists of Hamida as the goalkeeper which she did so well in and although there were hiccups and all that, then the both amirahs, gaya and kimb, which kimb...scored the nicest goal ever. hahaha and i assisted!! Gosh we had the whole court screaming man. and i finally understand (or so i think?) why coach put me in tht team. so we didnt win any out of 5, but drawed 2, and lsot 3. the senior team won champion i think. anyway it was fun yay! and i was so fucking tired coz i had very little sleep.& i talked a lot to cherrie and i really like her company,haha

So i had to rush home from jurong (bloody hell) to meet the rest(Gail,Zhiyi,Kevin,James) and was rushing like hell coz i tht postbox was at 7, they stated so in their myspace but it was actually 6? damn. so the rest gave me my pressies which i really liked a lot, and had dinner and just chilled. oh and i met khai coz he wanted to give me my pressie too. hmmm. and i had so much trouble getting on and off the bus coz i kept hitting people with the big La senza bag from the horriblest (?) fat neck ever.

I had work today and i visited my ex babysitter at robinsons after work and i am happy seeing her. i am so tired i want to sleep now.

photos another day...
kinda tired of waiting

oh thank you to everyone that wished my happy bday

& i just read gail's blog and she said this, "the newly-turned sixteen year old whined the whole way through, outrageously annoying and i sat there, and secretly wondered if her neck was expanding."
horribly mean.

2008-12-12T18:28:00.003+08:00

It is... indeed my worst birthday ever. nobody is free to celebrate it with me. very little people remembered. my parents didnt even wish me. i spent the whole day crying at home. my parents are nt even free to take me out. i got asked by someone to give him space.

fuck 12 december really. ive always waited for this fucking day and now i dread it so much. i just wish that the day will end soon..

and everyone is saying to me, Hey happy birthday, enjoy your day. cmon man im at home doing nothing and how the fuck do i enjoy my day?

Oh and the only thing that made me felt abit happy was gail had lunch with me and ger came over as a surprise (although i kinda knew it alrdy) for like 15 mins to give me a cheesecake. thank you both of you

i really hate my birthday.

2008-12-12T02:04:00.003+08:00

Oh hey, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME?
i had fun just now.
but now im not happy anymore, i dont have anyhting to do tmrw. i hate my birthday this year. i hate it more and more every year. im just gonna stay home and sleep.
&gail if you see this tmrw, i might nt be able to meet you on sat coz i have a match. fucking shit. im sorry.

birthdays sucks.i want to sleep.

If I had my own world
I'd build you an empire
From here to the far lands
To spread love like violence

2008-12-11T01:02:00.004+08:00

Secret crowds

Fatigue.......
I feel really tired although i cant sleep. i hate that feeling. i fel sickly altohugh there's nothing wrong with me. i think i havent been eating right or enough. yeah i know the rest is probabl gonna kill me coz i was making so much noise about eating today and they all wanted to punch me. i jsut dont feel like eating. i can go through the whole day without eating, and maybe just water. but i just eat to make sure i have some food in me. like a piece of bread could last me through 14 hrs or so.&whenever i eat i feel like puking.urgh sick& crazy right? i kinda like it.haha, okay i think you think im bonkus now. i hate food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! screams go away.

Okay so i jsut got back from the airport, was sending ym sis off to Japan, damn she's so lucky. its like the third school trip she went alrdy. arghhh, she is going there to play floorball & all the sightseeing stuff, skiing snowboarding and all that.it so unfair. imagine if we go there to play soccer, gossssssh tht would be heaven man. haha? and it would be snowing. urgh!

Ytd i had last min work. and so, it wasnt as boring. i did quite a good job i think the customers were pretty satisfied with my attitude. i was surprised with my attitude. iw as so nice. but closing was shitty coz i screwed up and i took an hr to close. ahhh. i forgot to count the money before switching off. silly. urgh, and the reciept had no paper. i had to ask the neighbouring pshcart although i kinda dislike her. hahahah but she really helped me and i guess i cant be that judgemental.. &before that i went to old school with Khai hahah and bloody hell, the blazer that i liked cost 1007bucks. whaaaada?

Oh and jsut now went for the once a week dinner with cliquey. and yeah we were great although there were some hmmmm complications. although nobody really noticed it? i was yammering abt ava so much ahaha, oh anyway ily'all so much!

Im eating grapes,yumyum healthy. ahhaha.
One more day to my sweet 16? haha?

It isnt love if you can live with that person; it is love if you cant live without that person
And sadly i cant live without him

2008-12-08T22:40:00.005+08:00

Bean had some spasms just now and i almsot cried coz i was so scared.(yeh i cry over everything? tsk) today my mood is 0/10. haha? some things happened and i have no idea iif im supposed to be esctatic or despressed. it was good, like maybe i would give myself a 8/10 (wow), then it slowly came to a halt, which was sadness, (0/10, haha?). sigh, whats new really? it always happens.

i think im having a fever i wanna sleep alrdy... sigh

will you still love me in the morning?

&Here... are the photos for ytd's concert. haha, photos which you're only able to take standing RIGHT infront of the stage... okay im an asshole. hahaha.Okay the first photo is my favourite.

2008-12-08T00:50:00.003+08:00

Guess what... I just came back from ANGELS AND AIRWAVES AND I WAS RIGHT IN FRONT AND GOT TO TOUCH TOM SO OVERALL DESPITE THE AWKARDNESS IT WAS 5/10 TODAY, YAY YIPEE IM IMPROVING? although ytd was a fucking -1/10, seriously. i broke down and cry, i was alone at home and it scares the shit out of me, again? loser, i know pathetic. sigh. anyway friday, Snow white and 7 dawrfs by w!ld rice was really good? i strongly recommend it, and its quite cheap, 50 bucks for cat 1 ticks? hahah i love it and i wanna go again!! wheee.

sooo the concert, haha me and james went and we actually had 4 ticks but 2 was for the other softies that won. so haha? we met khai and gang there and it scared the shit out of me really. i was so quiet and scared. haha? so we helped them crash the place, fucking hell la? i pity those that spent 125 bucks on it and we helped like 5 people + crash the place. hahaha. bloody cool la, we defied the security guards and ran to the front and i hit my leggy. ouch. soooo i got to the front!!!!!!!!! at the stage. like right infront, i could rest my arms on the stage and touch Tom's shoes and HAND SCREAMS! hahaha. so i was with Khai... yeh, haha i lost james halfway hahah i think he was behind? then ltr i lsot khai and damnnnn i was at such a good spot but nvrmind i went behind a bit to join khai... (yes....hahaha(: ) sooooo, i had so much fun singing the adventure and all that, it was good. hehe. ILY AVA!!!!!!!!!!!! &thanks james once again

I HAVE ALOT OF PHOTOS BUT ILL UPLOAD IT SOONNNN

knowing that you;re next to me, scares the shit out of me..sigh ily?

2008-12-05T00:00:00.004+08:00

I rate my happiness today as 4/10, one day, ill get 10/10

Today, i got a bad start to the day. I was so sad, that i sat infront of the mirror and stare at myself, despite knowing that i am late meeting nandyhini. I couldn't helped myself? &while getting ready i slipped and knocked myself on the table and i just sat there, staring. but in 2mins i got up, and im glad. On the way to cityhall, i was just, like dead? So yeh i was late, and then wernt to chill for starbucks and people watched and coz they were giving out free starbucks, so we looked at those really kiasu and eager ones. haha.

Kinda jobhunted, and got snubbed by yogoru, "Oh we're only hiring above 18", with a Blair look. asshole. i thought i was working today at 6? then when i went there, june was there, and she was like surpirsed to see me, coz i WASNT SUPPOSE TO BE WORKING TODAY. so i was like, fucked up. seirously.i was on the verge of crying. i was already having such a bad day? then i called ger, and she was busy, and obviously didnt call gail coz she was at work and she cant go out anymore. and i didnt wanna call nandhyini coz she was alrdy on the way home.so i called him? and then i started crying,and blurted everything out. coz earlier in the dya i was upset over him and rather confused? he told me to meet him, but i didnt want to, i didnt wanna rely on him when i cry, although i really want to? so i abruptedly hung up. i know, im stupid, but i kinda felt proud of myself for not relying on him? sigh? i felt so dumb.

I met best and best never failed to cheer me up. teeet. ily.

Tell your heart a million times tht i was nvr at fault, it would nvr agree with you.

I didnt check my phone every 5mins today. maybe i did for awhile, but i think i checked every15mins instead? which is improving? i hope, its still a baby step

Now i know, im nt gg through alone, almost everyone is there for me.ily'all thank you

sometimes, i still wish i had someone there to hug me when im down. when i cried today i really wish he was there to comfort me. but fat hope yea? im sure sometimes everyone would feel that after a day of falling down so much, you'd wanna have someone there to hug you to tell you everything's gonna be okay... i hate that feeling of pineing for him

I have to remind myself that God would nvr let me go. i closed my eyes tdy and saw Jesus hugging me today and telling me everything's alright and it will be soon over. thank you Lord
\\

OH AND GUESS WHAT! IM GOING TO CATCH ANGELS&AIRWAVES!!!!!!!!!!! I THINK MY 4OUT OF 10, 3 CAME FROM THIS, THANKS G&J!!!!!!!!!1

Spotted, S screaming her heart out

2008-12-03T23:30:00.005+08:00

guess what, i jsut check my email... and, IVE WON TWO TICKETS TO TWILIGHT SNEAK PREVIEW HAHAHAHA OHMYGOD????????? IM SO HAPPY. hahaha. its on the 16th dec at lido... hahaha. i send in the entry thingy guessing i wouldnt win and i did, so yay! i can watch 2 days before it releases,and i can gt some twilight freebies too i think. hehe!

So anyway, okay i just went through an awful period of shit,and ill be mentioning him a lot, and i will stop doing so untill i get over him. so yeh, i mean like if you complain its emo and shit, then just go away? its my personal space and i can express whatever i want.

Aight,I had soccer match tdy, and i didnt know until 1am last night. sooo i only got 4hrs of sleep... gah. and couldnt really concentrate or rather was lazy or rather had him on my mind and it pained me. haha? okay,so we got trashed badly.hahah.oh we played against an australian team and coincidentally ytd when i worked, one of the girls bought something from me and i recognised her. hahah. fate?

After that a few of us went to hang out and talk abt r/s and all that stuff. i know, typical, esp when im gg through it now. hmmm, cherrie is going over to aus during the sec semester and im thinking of aksing my mom to bring me over to study next yr so i skip poly since singapore doesnt have any courses on zoology.sad case huh.so im gonna research now and hopefully get some good stuff to persuade my mom to let me study there asap, okay i know gg overseas to study is just a reality runaway thing for most people and i agree, i want to runaway from reality and all the shit im facing now? i wanna have a new life and environment, hah. the more im thinking abt this the more i hate singapore and the more i wanna go. i have too much bad memories here? okayyyy runaway from reality... yes.

Met J&G and went to L's place to hang out.. we played gunbound,watch dvd and played uno stacker and scrabble. hahaha?okay aftermath of o's are boring, but fun. i dont wanna be left alone at home coz i am afraid of crying and all that so unfortunately, i have to be around people to keep me company. pathetic i know... gah,so Kevin came and we chilled and blahblah and went to amk hub to meet gail after her work for kinda a full clique celebration birthday thingy for Lennon and haha, we had steamboat buffet which I know the restaurant would be so happy to have me coz i barely ate much and paid 14bucks. the rest ate so much i was afraid. haha gail and kevin left at 9 and we stayed and chilled for awhile outside mac's, haha yes typical SG? haha. and laughed. thank you bestfriends for cheering me up, for being there for me, ily'all(:

So, right now, im just..alone. really i am? im just finding everything i can do now to keep myself busy. im gonna jobhunt on friday, ,to gt two jobs although im sitll nt sure coz best havent found me a place at starbucks coz best sis said shes finding me a place which offers higher pay.(: i think raffles is hiring? okay i reallyreally hope i get a busy schedule till april which poly starts, oh wait maybe by then im alrdy off to aus. haha, okay dreams..

And.... my birthday is like what?next friday is my birthday and, haha? i think we;re celebrating by going fishing... ??? hahaha,okayyy

im so afraid of not being able to do anything. ill chekc out my whole week at the start and make sure im have something on everyday, or i will cry and just mop around the house or lie in bed the whole day. i am pathetic, aren't i? ahh,there's work tmrw. ill be alone. again.

loneliness is painful
and ive given up and im proud of myself for having the strength to do so although i check my phone every 5-10mins. pathetic.

okay longpost...

2008-12-03T00:33:00.002+08:00

Part and parcel. it is really over.

2008-12-01T00:31:00.001+08:00

Everthing is okay now. im glad..(: ily loads khai and sorry for everything to everyone ive hurt..

2008-11-29T23:52:00.006+08:00

Lecture.

K so anyway im back. i dont want to okay? as if i want to and come back and face so many bitches. snorts. my trip was okay, shopped quite alot, went with 3 luggage and came back with 7 ahaha. yehyeh... blog when i feel better

Oh and what is cheering me up now, is that mom has allowed to let me go overseas to study!!!!!!! im so happy. hahaha.but which is like after my poly,urghh. i might be gg to perth alone later in Dec HAHAHA U KNOW HOW HAPPY I AM? which means i still ahve to stay in singpaore and see some fucking assholes. and yes ive made up my mind to be a zookeeper, i nkow its a funny and weird occupation, but i love animals and i really wanna do some animal psychology stuff... hehe so yeh. and fyi, being a zookeeper needs to study so yeh dont come and tell me, "might as well you quit school now and just start", I'd say, "fuck you, coz u do need an education to be a zookeeper." and i might be getting a job at starbucks this holidayyyyy since bestie's sis is working there as manager. yipeee!!!!!!!!!

for the sake of counting down, MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 13 DAYS, and im not excited at all...

lost you

2008-11-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

took this randomly in the hotel room.

i jsut came back from ocean park, i overcame my fear of the turbo drop thing and took it. which means dropping from i think 15plus storeys?

hk is getting slow. i dont wanna go back to face anyone to see anyone

i wish i could stay here, im sad

2008-11-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

Hey yall, im in hk alrdy, i reached at abt 7 or 8. its the same time here. so i just came back from shopping.. its soso, its winter season so the clothes arent that great. 5 more days till im back. missing all my besties and khai? ahah. idk? okay. anyway. i gtg, bye thanks for those who wished me bon voyage(:

2008-11-22T23:31:00.006+08:00

So... I said, Fuck you very much,

then I

wonder wonders wondered wonderings

then (Cry)

So lame, get a life.Eh anyway, tmrw im kleaving singapore, yaya for those who love me ill miss you alot, those who hate me (YA YOU IF YOU'RE READING IT), go celebrate, wheeee!!

So anyway, thursday,went out with roro and nan, it was a last min thing so yeh, it was so tiring coz all we did was walked around and all that. oh and also i worked on thursday for 4 hrs. it was okay, just tired. dont ask what it is assholes dont be so bloody busybody. heh.Oh and thank you Khairul for waiting for me. kkk.then yada nth much la. today, went to hmv to get bday present for auntie and i was running the 3 levels up and down of hmv jsut to find it. god, all i had to do was A S K. damnit\

So yeh went to marsilling CC for Khai's gig and had some motherf*cking bad news & saw some bad eyesore there and i was like What the fuck in merlin pants? well anyway i didnt get thanked i guess. and there goes my hero? ha Okay lame that was a song they played, i wanted to say there goes my weekend.

I CANT WAIT TO GET OUT OF THIS SHITHOLE and leave,

FOREVER

bitches

K anyway ill miss all of you, bye xoxo (Gossip girl) (hahah whatever i just got hooked onto it)
K BYE

2008-11-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

I want you outoutout of my life, forever and ever

So basically, i hate ice skating like hell. ger gail and zy loves it. i swear im nvr gonna go there again. after 2 hrs i still couldnt skate and i feel down so many times with so amny bruises and also caused ger and gail to fall with me. hahah i feel horrible. im so sry

Yeh sooo, we went town to have dinner and we saw this girl that was.... and i screamed so loud. hahaha, im so sorry i couldnt help it. I was so tired so went home due to training in the morning so i left at 8. training was fun btw, we were so rusty and lazy. haha we no longer need to run that much and do phyisical. hahah, but training was good man.

My whole week's free until sunday which im flying off. gonna watch gossip girl everyday HAHA wheeeee, and play gunbound!

pics are with the rest, i was frowning the whole time to bother to take out my camera. see gail and zy blog

I trust everyone so easily and in the end? i get hurt.

2008-11-16T00:05:00.007+08:00

Im so numb, ive been called stupid, hear my heart shatter?

Oh im having so much fun. yay. ha. thursday went for manicure and pedicure with Ger and Gail, heheee, we all have nice colours now,yumyum. watched avenue Q at night and gosh i really wished i watched with my friends because it was so x rated i felt embarrass that my parents were there, haha i kept going like, "Oh.My.God" at parts that showed sex and all that, hahaha. well i recommend watching it although 16th is the last day of the play.

Friday was a blast. Partayyyye at Lennon's, im collabortation of the aftermath of o's and sending kevin off although hes gonna come back la(he was flying of that night, aww gail's so sad. hahaha!). Hahaha. okay it wasnt exactly partying but it was a bbq party that started at 5pm. who the hell starts bbqing at 5? yes us. haha. but the food was goodddd, and his house was so nice. heheh. we chat blahblahs edly there was no booze (Boos) or fags, haha whadda we dont even smoke anyway but there was no booze!! man! oh well, we played guitar oh and snap alot of peektures, and watched dvd and play HALO hahaha, i tell you it was so fun! i kept screaming like mad coz i kept getting killed. hahaha. soooo we chatted and blahblah lounge at his pool which was so nice heheh. yumyum. snap alot of photos im gonna post them up. oh i has so much fun, thank you all for being there for each other, and yes my bestest friends ♥♥♥♥♥

I miss you...

i love all of you

2008-11-14T00:14:00.003+08:00

I miss you so much it hurts me i just wanna cry i feel so numb i feel so crappy and i just wanna ask what happened to us?

Im choosing to believe that it is not that ~~we're fading~~

But i find it so hard to be in this anymore, its so tiring with all that pretending and i cant keep up anymore

So guess what im doing? Im building a wall around It so if it happens again.... It wouldnt be that bad, yes?

However im not succesful..
Yet.

2008-11-13T01:54:00.004+08:00

LIBERATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel oily and fat

Okay i had a blast with new family, sort of, it was tiring rather? Yes so today it was all of us bangsy without Lennon which means its, me Gail Ger Kevin and James. Yes so i was late again and so was the other 2. Kinda like a celebration for the liberation stuff, aha. So hmmmm we did a lot of things and it never seems to end. Went to Sweelee and he heh check out the drums but actually was just looking, i got new drumsticks ahah and its quite cheap... Went to Marina after that and watched Quantum and i would say it sucked, hahahaha. Like seriously, there was no plot and i kept going "Oh here we go again... ", and he is so ugly anyway. Hahah.

So we went bowling too and heh my score was horrible, ger scored quite high. And we met Gi (Ger's sister) and Kenneth and all went for dinner tgt, it kinda seems like so sec 1-2ish when we go out and do this stuff,which is the movie bowling and all that. Haha and so ltr most left and so was elft with james and ger and me being the gooseberry. Haha, hehehe. Went to penin and this electronic drums caught my eye and wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i think im gonna get it. Hahaha yayyyy!!! And we walked arnd raffles again and starbucks to chill and this time we dont have to study!!!

Screams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Screams again!!!!!!!!!

Now im sad. I miss you. Everything sucks for us right now. Nobody is doing anything to make anything better. It sucks, ya i know.

Awkward,silence. Inside im screaming. Okay that was so emo, ah whatever. I hope things get better... Ily really.

OKay yes i know my face is like carbon copy...

2008-11-10T10:56:00.002+08:00

My arm hurts like hell from tennis yesterday. i love tennis now. hahah,but its very tiring, it hurts to even type now. i have paper tmrw and lucky its mcq, ahaha. OMGOD ONE MORE PAPER EVERYONE!!!WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha okay its so early in the morn im going to gail's hse later to study, suddenly just have the urge to come online to blog. lol

Lit was quite horrible, i had no idea what i was writing some times))): my weekends were gooood. heh heh. sat went to Khai's gig and it was also our 15th month and a lot of people were wishing us. hahaha? yeh he was dresses up as an ij girl, (he's skirt was fucking short?) haha i have the pics but i havent upload it. maybe tmrw. kay blog tmrw or something i gtg or ill be late!

2008-11-03T23:47:00.004+08:00

Im lost, and id rather spend waste time with you

2more papers to go and im so done,but i actually am looking forward to it and not?idk what to do after the exams, i cant start to get a job coz im leaving on the last week of the month and be back on dec. then woooooh, no school till aug, then comes soccer,job,love(?), DRUMS

HAHAHAHAH HOLD UP BTW MY MOM IS THINKING O GETTING ME DRUMSET WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH SCREAMS, BUT ELECTRONIC I THINK. BUT ITS SO DAMN EXP TO GET A GOOD SET, ABT 2300+ FOR THE BETTER ONES. THEN THERE'S THIS THREAD ON SOFT TO MUTE YOUR DRUM WHEEEEE I THINK IM GONNA DO THAT? HAHAHA, actually idk whether my mom is really gonna buy.ha

im so tired. im sorry but i didnt do anything wrong.

my dream set, dtxtreme iv special set

2008-10-30T18:31:00.004+08:00

"Omg she's so blur we cant see her." Hhahaha. owned.

Anyway i know i shouldnt be blogging but im taking a break although tmrw's poa? i have like only a 50% chance of scoring. i think, well everyone havent studied poa yet so maybe they'd moderate. haha! okayyy im also taking a break coz of im having a fever, as in literally exam fever. the doc said maybe because im too stressed or i havent been sleeping enough, which is true. yeh so befpore the e math paper today i was like praying and praying and had those painful headaches and was screaming. haha.

Oh well God is great, he made me well just before the paper. and you know what! its 4 more papers to go! hahaha im so happy. but kinda sad coz idk what to after o's coz studying is taking up all my time. havent been seeing khai tooand even i we do its for a short time coz i have to go home to study, so sad, i miss him. & he picked me up on tues. (: haha so sweeet

OKay i hope i do well for poa although i doubt i can? i dont know the last few chapts for nuts. sigh. i hope i did well in my science and math. i think math was fine. (well yeh i did the whole tys) yay yay, poa tmrw, ss, pure lit (shit) i ahevtn even started studying, but thankfully there's three days break in btw ss and lit. oh then there's science p1 whee and we're all done!

I wanna go for rihanna's concert, hahaha kay i know like whatever? but its expensive. and prom, i hate our school, when we had no prom, people were jsut complaining and making a hell of a noise, and now there is one, AT HOME CLUB (+++++) and majority doesnt wanna go? well lucky petrina said she's sitll gonna hold it, wheee homeclub here i come, hehehe

I love you khairul! dont be jealous

hahaha you GOTTA LOVE THEM oh and anyway okay sounds so typical but i like gossip girl hahahaha and wheeeee penn badgely is hot

2008-10-16T16:42:00.003+08:00

i have no idea what is your fucking problem with me cutting bangs. you think you're so pretty and you fucking own bangs? haha saying that im ugly that you have no idea how i go out of the house? hahahaha and to my boyfriend? you bitched to me abt my boyfriend? ahaha are you so fucking dumb that your brain refuses to leave the house with you to be seen with you? hahaha omgod, what a bloody fucking bitch. hahahaha i think you're just jealous that me and khai can last so long although we fight so much? i was blinded by your fakeness last time but i knew you were just trying to break us up. ha, u had your chance in sec 2 when he liked you but you didnt want him, so yeh just fuck off and stay away from him nw? you think you're so pretty but all your photos are edited thats why you only get friends liking you online, not in real life. hahaha, you blur your complexion, to look like what? like a bloody fake? hahaha omgod get a life, go study for your o's instead of spending time bluring your photos. hahahahaha hilarious.

You are the meanest person ever that even your EX best friend doesnt even wanna be your friend anymore. hahah pathetic piece of shit i tell you.

2008-10-12T22:50:00.005+08:00

TWILIGHT PHOTOS WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, HAHAHAHA. SO HAPPY!!!!!!! SCREAMS.ITS SO TOTALLY THE BOOK UH! like now i have a clearer view of the book. wheehee, i hope the movie is up to its expectations. watch the trailer! ahhaha, im so fanatic laaa,

I.AM.DAZZLED.BY.TAYLOR.LAUNTER.
FAINTS!

EMMETT, ROSALIE, ALICE! AND JASON WHEEEEEEE

2008-10-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HELLLLLLL TWILIGHT FULL TRAILER IS OUTTTTTT!!!!!!!SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WATCH IT WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Twilight

OH AND I HAVE BANGS NOW!

2008-10-04T22:00:00.005+08:00

Hey everyone, i havent blogged like in a million years and everyone i think is asking me to update. ahaha. i havent came online since forever cause ostudying every night till 2? ahaha, its study break now so yeh im studying but guess what, today's sat and i stayed home the whole day to study. its abt less then 2 weeks to the big O's, im freaking out coz i havent know everything, u nkow its suppose to be revision alrdy but im still unsure about some things. sigh, i just did like 3 e math papers and finished 3/4 of history alrdy. headacheeee i was planning to study till 2 but my brain cant take it so im resting now by using the comp. so yes i am gonna upload alot of photos, the ones on grad day.

Gahhhh im sosososo tired. my whole week has been so tiring, i sleep at 2 everyday and wake up at 7 plus supposedly for school and then i hit snooze and sleep untill 9 then go to school for the sec shift ahaha and gail and ger are always there so early and apparently im always late so im called fat neck. ahaha

Gail and ger came over on mon to study and we cut ger's hair too, ahha she has bangs now, she's called miss jumin bangs, im suppose to dedicate one post to her but maybe ill do it later. ahaha

This week atcually ive acutally been going out quite alot too, ahaha, kept going out with Khai and hehe, and yeh had fun, esp on tues to haji! wheehee thank you very much baby, hehe and i got my first green packet in my life. hahaha, selemat hari rayaaaaaa. and thank you for everything.

im only gonna upload those group ones.. very lazy ahhaa, and it takes so long! omg i jsut realised i didnt upload all last week and i deleted all alrdy! omgosh shittttttttttttttt. fuck all my soccer team photos!):

2008-09-24T17:40:00.000+08:00

Feel my thirsty heart with Your love

Just stand up, watch it here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mr5mvNPyV1I absolutely fantastic with the biggest hits of all time singing for cancer. ahahha. except that miley cyrus spoiled it! hahaha

Okay i just had a long day at home, been baking since 1plus? and to say it has been rather successful. i just hope it dries soon. im so dead beat. i havent studied today but there's tuition, gah amaths again, at 630): so tired, feel like sleeping. oh Germaine came over surpposedly to bake but she ended up studying while i baked. haha. yeh, so anyway my cookies didnt turn out well but my cupcakes are yummmmy wheeee. ahahhaa. ohoh, if you're wondering what im baking for, its for the last day of school tmrw...

Im so sad! 4 yrs has passed by so fast, well not as though ill miss my class... but there are some friends like nandhini and nandhyini and roro that we only got closed to past few months. its so unfair, only when i gt close to them, its gonna be pushed away by ending of secondary school ): so sad!!!!!! screams, i've nvr really thought of school ending yet, until now when its just abt 24 hrs away. and the soccer team, im gonna miss them so much. on mon we had the prize presentation thing for our last tournament that we won and it has been so long since we gathered, the whole upper sec team was there. we all hugged coz we are all gonna msis each other. the rest are still able to play except for me vivien may and aisha coz we're all graduating. asyura was so sad when i told her it was our last day on thurs. awwwwwwww.):

Also, its gonna be the last time all of us are gonna come to school and have fun. ytd, gail ger stacey and I stayed in class after the poly talk for the rest of the day to sing. ahaha. it was so fun, and we camwhored in the toilet and danced inside. aaahhh. memories. hope that we're not gonna drift away when we go to different schools next yr.

Btwmy course is 11 or 14 point, i dont havethe confidence to make it):

Come to think of it ive always been looking forward to ending sec school life fast but now its really coming im scared, its poly next yr, and my o's are in 26days. i havent done alll my revision, kinda stressed that i brokedown few days ago. been praying alot., aha.

Oh and there's no prom night grad night which is really sad but we might be planning out a small party for those who are interested to come. anyone reading this can ask me,gail or eileen and gang, we do hope its gonna be successful although its rather short notice.

Gonna miss everyone. ):

So let Your Name be lifted higher, amen thank you Lord

2008-09-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

STUDY

STRESS

BREAKDOWN.CRY

Lord help me

2008-09-16T22:09:00.002+08:00

MY HEART OH OH MY HEART
PARANOID

HI EVERYONE.PRELIMS ARE FINALLY OVER.SCREAMSSSSSS, BUT I DONT HAVE THE MOOD TO STOPPP STUDYING. hahah weird? ok a ctually i havent been studying tdy and ytd. kinda tired. i havent been online for so long! i think we're getting back results tmrw?:/ohno!its 30something mroe days to o's!screams!

Oh well, my past week has been very very tiring and stressed. ive been studying so much everyday till 1 am that im used to sleep late everynight. gosh. yeh and also i have been spending with khai too. heee. i cant really rmb what happened last week besides studying. hahaha.

Oh sattttyy, went to salad days to catch postbox but hehe i like the nerves too.yehyeh postbox was good as usual,yada. the nerves i like them although their grunge. sunday study again. baby's injured his leg, tore his ligament,): poor thing. have been visiting him for 2days alrdy, his on my old crutches now, ahaha. gahhh

im so bored. i have been waiting all week to blog but suddenly idk what to say.. ahahah
RORO I HAVE BLOGGED

Can you come to my house and light me up, light me up up up

2008-09-05T15:45:00.003+08:00

The script - The man who can't be moved

Very nice weather. havent seen the sky blue and cloudy for a long time now. unfortunately im stuck at home, did i mention its a friday? Haha. oh and what am i doing? Studying- mugging hard. lit paper's next monday and im not even finished on midsummer night's dream. sigh. doing a mindmap now with the help of the information on the internet and its very limited. tsk, i jsut finished studying from japan to the end of cold war ^^ good eh? i just started ytd. and finished it a few hours ago. i think ive pretty much studied most of my subjs, now tht ive touched on humans, since ss is over. OHHHHH, shit i havent started on poa!!! damn. sigh, im so bored of studying. im actually afraid of the o's im starting to panic now? everyday i would study till 12 am till im tired and satisfied. o's are in abt 43 days is it? gosh ONE MORE MONTHHHHHHH screams!!!!! i am scared. i really am.

Going out with Khai ltr wheeee, we ve been studying this whole week ( i still think its nt enough) and i am tkaing a break and distress tonight to catch a movie or shop? hee. yay! oh mom's having a bbq maybe ill come home to munch abit, aha the food looks good, ciao!

I WISH I HAVE SHAKESPEARE'S BRAINNNNNNNN

2008-09-02T02:17:00.004+08:00

Hello estatic people i cant sleep. i am happy! which is quite seldom. ahha? things are smooth and good now. im friends with gail, we had a great performance, i love khai so much, yep, life is good

OKay!friday!
Teachers dayyy, i failed three subjs, haha? 2 frigging f9 and 1 e8. sigh. oh well. Our performance was awesome. hahaha, i mean like, i didnt screw up or anything. i didnt even sweat, i was actually comfortable, it hink im getting used to it alrdy since the last performance. haha! which is good. i love my band so much! muahhhs, ahahha thanks for those who supported us! i've thanked most of you personally alrdy! we took band photos and it was so fun, i still laugh to myself when i think about it. (see pics uploaded)wheehee. oh, i didnt go baybeats! i didnt get to catch peepshow and leeson.): i spent time with khai and we ate at the pasar malam wheeheee, and i must thank him for taking photos for us, and most imptly, being there for me and giving me the support, calming me down! thanks love! oh ya asyura has the video! im gonna upload once she sends me! (:

Saturdaaaaay
Hmmm? Baybeats,electrico was playing. wahaaaaa! baybeats= mats minahs kents galore, and also all the chapalang people that dont know about it was there too! it was.. hmm, im speechless by the people who actually turned up(people we saw). oh welllll, sang along to love in new wave, they played lotsa songs from wesatellites thoigh. still good, amanda is hot. ahah! ohoh i went with khai&his bro, and in which we splitted up, and we met lotsa other people after that. oh and yda i had alot of fun with khai!!!!! screams* our second baybeats tgt, although quite disappointed that plainsunset wasnt playing so we could have fun but oh well?

Sunday
I didnt get to catch aja wahlao bcoz of some shit stuff, but got to catch my little airport and khai loves them. haha in cantonese, CANTO INDIE MAN hahaha. i only understand abit. ohoho, we cleared up alot of stuff which led to drama mama which i dont wanna talk about it, but i know we love each other alot! ahaha random! Okay thne we took photo for the nokia thingy and got it developed, chey sweet sey. ahaha i dotn have any photos at all coz .. hahah! nothing

(i cant really rmb the detailed things we did, sorrry)

I had so much fun with Khai for the past few days! yes i love Khai rul alot yknow yknow weve been tgt for a mnth and coming to 13mnths alrdy, hahaha, fuck all of you who think we cant last? i think youre just fucking jealous we're always on rocks but next moment its like smooth. ha! biatchhhesuckers!!!!!! __ hehe

TOday! all of us went to Gail's place and yehyeh as usual late again coz i was FIRSTTT FOR ONCE and the rest were late... so took bus blahblah to gail's place and studied quite alot, quite pleased with myself over some ques i could do for ADDITIONAL MATHS hahaha i only got (8.2) for ppr, shhh. yehyeh! then studied lala, then played piano lala, then rest of us went to amk hub bought some accessories, yay i love my flower clip! haha!

Went to bishan to study at coffee bean with Khai! and we studied, i taught him!!, im so happy
! i told him it was the happiest day of my life. he wanted to study. was actually keen on it! and didnt mind me teaching him. hahaha! YAY! heartttssss! and i studied too. chill pill abit bfr going back home! yay!

stop critisizing like you know things abt it. loseurs. you dotn know how to appreciate.

oh good luck to the people taking the N's! esp baby! ♥♥♥♥

I dont wana lose you again again please i dont wanna go through tht crap again,pls. ily, i know you do too xo

Also,I dont care a SHIT about what you say about me coz i fucking think you're a piece of shit. you're just overshadowed by all of us yknow? nobody gives a shit about who you really are. i dont care also if you left your knife behind my back coz im leaving my sword/arrow/blahblah behind yours im sure you wont even have a back anymore, hah, in your face.

wordy post, i dont have much pics, ohoh only for fridays performance! enjoyyyyyy

Yay! I love khairul!!!!!!1♥♥♥♥♥♥ ( i look fat): )

And the band photos... enjoyyyy

2008-08-28T16:09:00.006+08:00

I WILL POSSESS YOUR HEART

eheheheheh!Listen to Kanye West feat Adam Levain - Hear Em' Say! they mixed kanye's song and maroon 5's nothing last forever tgt, nice mtv too

Anyway, there's performance tmrw!!!!! screams. im scared and nervous again. screams!!! aaaah, i played well during jamming but during ytd's rehersal i screwed up and im scared that id just
stop and scream tmrw, yes stress. aaaaaaaah i have such a heavy heart now im about to pee in my pants!

Oh btw, prelims are in action now. hahah i mean im having it now. 2 papers down about a million to go?hahaha, okay probably abt 7 more days to go. Thank Godddd man there's a week holiday to study. gosh. i hope i do well for my eng. school ended at 915 tdy and we had some comp lab thing ahaha, it was fun i wanted to bring the cd home:OOO hahahaha. and went home to sleeeeeeeeeeeep. its only 4pm but its like weird, im nvr home during this time or if i am ill probably be sleeping.

Kinda hope things chnge but my heart doesnt wanna budge

Im having a heavy heart too coz im scared over some things. im preparing myself for the worse but yeh its still scary, i thought about it and cried although it hasnt even happened yet but i can feel the fear eating my heart out alrdy. somehow i know that something is just gonna happen, something bad

stressed up , im watching goal 2 now, feel like watching some soccer flick and not some romance blahblah

was looking through my lap files and here's some old photos of Khai...

imu, old you

first date and camp

2008-08-26T03:03:00.001+08:00

SUMMIT ENTERTAINMENT MOVES UP RELEASE DATE FORTWILIGHT TO NOVEMBER 21, 2008 Los Angeles, CA August 15, 2008 — TWILIGHT,

the first film in Summit Entertainment's thriller romance franchise, has moved up its North American release date to Friday, November 21, 2008. The film, which was previously planned to be released on December, 12, 2008, is taking advantage of an opening in the upcoming fall release calendar. The new release date for TWILIGHT allows the studio to both bring the film to the written-series' enormous fan base sooner, and to present the film in more theatres prior to the holiday movie-going season where traditionally screen time for any popular film is limited.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2008-08-26T01:14:00.002+08:00

Im like really really pissed and mad you know. arghhhhhhhh, im like shedding mad tears. im so exasperated. first,you told us you could play, then sudd u cant, and what are we gonna do? we've chosen all the songs that has to include you and i spent all the way to 2 finding it with ger. and now we have to scrap all the songs and find another song, in such short notice, and there's jamming tmrw which we're suppose to know what song to playa nd master it by tmrw. and now what? we have to learn a new song all over when everyone has alrdy practiced their parts. and by wednesday, there's rehearsal, and what? friday is the performance. fuck. yeh i know its not your fault, its your mom's

And i thought i could talk to u abt how im feeling and what im gg through. guess not, you dont understand at all? jsut think im throwing a fit. im like fucking stressed?you're making my feel worse. i wanna cry

Dont fucking tell me im overreacting. put yourself in my shoes. i have to do practically EVERYTHING. always me me me, i wash my hands off this, you guys decide.

2008-08-23T01:11:00.004+08:00

Just put your hands on me

Hiiiiiiiii, its a short week! its late but im kinda bored and Khai's asleep and so im here to blog(roro is gonna be estatic,hehe) ! i skipped shcool on tues and thurs, hehehe, im lazy.. and ive been studying with adeline on tues and wed at the beancurd shop and im sick of the smell. haha bt i like soya beancurd now! ironic.

Oh well, oh i forgot to add last sun, wss girls won champion for the cdc tournament, i hardly played my best,so.. ahha yeh and we didnt expect to win coz the first 2 matches were a draw then we had some urge to win and bring the cup back and we won ite bishan! hahahaha we were screaming like its some big cup. it isnt, the gold was a silver. hahahahaha. whatever

I am so proud of myself. ive done 5maths paper in 3days, proud right? hahaha. yay! prelims are next week!!!!!! screams. fucken 60plus days to o's.

Ha, and next fri, our broken up band is gonna perform. hahaha. i think? we havent evend ecided which song and all that lah, and whatsmore, jamming. gosh. Gail cant make it to jamming sessions and we have sooo short time.

Didnt study tonight and watched Money not enough2 with khai! weehee. ahhaha, its been long since we caught a movie. we had so little time this week with each other... the exams are nearing, we're studying hard. 132 baby.

OHHH AND I JSUT READ FINISH ECLIPSE, i took so long tor ead it, 1 week, coz i studied alot. i prioritised new moon and twilight and i finished it in 2 days, and yes didnt study. haha waiting for breaking dawn! i think i shoukld jsut buy the book. im gg out with mom to watch To Kill A mockingbird tmrw! yay maybe shopping afterwards weehee.

Some random photos i was bored and had the urge to play with the colour splash thingy. hahaha, and sat and sunday photos! AND NO I DIDNT EDIT!!!!! hehe

2008-08-19T01:35:00.000+08:00

Oopsie i ahvent blogged for awhile here, its like midnight, about130 i think, but im bored and im skipping school tmrw, and i decided to use the comp. my parents just came back today so yeh there goes my freedom and all that. hmmm. so yeh many things have happened.. im stressed out by loads of things. i dont wish to blog it out but yeh,

so whats up this whole week, my chinese o lvl is back, im nt retaking although i got a c6, hehh,

and fridayyy, had a clique outing at my place so study, ger stayed over, haha it wasnt really a slumber party, more like just sleeping over. hahaha, we watched dvd and read and slept. hahaha but still, it was a first. we borrowed The deaths of Ian Stone and hahaha, i didnt know it was a scary movie coz gail said as though it was like a romance movie, ahaha, so hilarious, after walking out of video ezy i realised it was a horror and completated to returned it but we didnt and we switched it on hahaha and screamed while watching the TRAILER hahahahaha so we switched it off, and watched the bucket list. it was like okay, neither here nor there. haha.

Then sat we went over to Gail's place coz it was Gill's birthday! yeh met up to buy pressies, and hmmhmm, ate popiah and made my first popiah haha which consist only of egg and the radish thing hahaha.

The rest of the days were spent with khai.(: Ive been studying quite alot now! haha!

I had my oral today. or rather ytd, and thank God coz its like easy? hahha, i mean i wasnt even nervous or anyhting like i was during the chinese oral. hehehe. Praise The Lord. i went home and came back for night study. quite productive. i finally finished the whole chap on venice, hehe!

its so sad that we turned out like that, this wasnt what i expected ... im trying to be happy, which is difficult

2008-08-11T03:00:00.000+08:00

Island in the sun

Hello everyone, happy birthday to singapore ytd! happy ONE YEAR to us on friday! jahahaha, amazing huh.

Anyway! FRIDAY. national day performance! hehehe, it was great, the whole performance thing, ger and jo won 3rd! hahaha i think she deserved better! she sand so well(: and i wasnt as nervous as last yr although i did screw up abit): oh well. but i felt comfortable! hahaha it was so fun. i had loads of people around me to calm me down, and whatsmore, khai was in the band too(: so yeh i had support form alot of people, hehe thank you very much for those who vote for us, idk who though hehe

oh and it was our one year anniversary too, hehe, 365 days man, i love you
oh and also, me and sis sent my parents off to europe and we were sad when we saw mom wanted to cry hahaha, i wanted to cry too but i held back my tears, i miss my parents, and surprisingly me and my sis comes back on time everyday, hahaha, i came back at 11, i wanted to stay out but nahhh, hehehe. aint i good

OHMYGOD ANYWAY I LOVE TWILIGHT LIKE HELL NOW HAHAHA I KNOW WHY VIVIEN IS SO CRAZY ABOUT IT NOW OMGOSSSSSSSHHHHHH I OCULDNT PUT DOWN THE BOOK YOU KNOW I READ IT LIKE IN TWO DAYS AND I WANNA READ MROEMOREMORE!!!!!I CANT WAIT TO READ THE SEC BOOK HEHEHEHE AND THE MOVIE I SAW THE TRAILER IS COMING OUT ON MY BDAY!? hahahahahahahahhaha!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHHAAH OMGODD RIGHT. okay i have lots of photos to put up but im dman lazy to resize. maybe tmrw... hehe

2008-08-07T13:28:00.002+08:00

heyyyyyyy heres a happy psot for all you people who think im emo shit

HAHAHA IM HAPPY NOWWWW IM IN THE LIBRARY NOW WITH ROSHITHA AND NANDHYINI HAHAHAHHA AND IM LAUGHING ALOT IM ALWAYS LAUGHING OKAAAAAY AND WE'RE WATCHING THIS YOUTUBE VIDEO! SO CUTE, WATCH KEVJUMBA!!! HAHAHAHA

OK WHATS UP YAWL, I HAVE REHEARSAL LTR ON FOR NATIONDAL CELEBRATION AND OMG GUESS WHAT IM PLAYING THE DRUMS HEHEHE WE'RE GONNA PLAY WEEZER- ISLAND IN THE SUN, HAHAHA VOTE FOR US OKAY, ME KHAI AND ATO! HEHEHE YAY!!!! IM SCARED IM GONNA PEE IN MY PANTS! AAAAAAAH

IM SO HAPPPYYYY HEHEHEHEHE
are u guys happy now? hahaha and i have time im gonna change my blogskin okay!

HIP HIP
HAHA BYE!

2008-08-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

"Hi would you like to donate?"

YES,flag day again, then proceeded home, then botanics, and then far east. im boreddddddddddddd.

so far ive gtten back 5 papers and i failed 4 fuck.yes guess what i passed? dear POA. and i was complaming tht id screw it badly. i screwed my e maths and a maths and chinese and chem, chemmmmmm omgoshhhh, fuck it. im studying hard now though): i think

ive read 7.5 books this month, or rather mid june-july. i love reading yay

i hate my sarcastic attitude.

i dont like going for training now, i miss the old team, i dontreally like the team nw, hehh, sorrry man. but i miss last yr so much? training is extremely boringggg mannn i dont feel like gg anymore

i hate the prinicple btw.and chemistry.

im tired of feeling tired all the time. i feel crazy. my head hurts and i dread everything. my fucken o's are in 80 days so shut the fuck up

they always say about freedom of speech but seriousl fuck whoever who says that coz its not true?

im falling in love with you againagainagain and again

ok fuck off now ok i look like i wanna eat the tin

2008-07-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

EXHAUSTED IM SOOO TIRED BUT JUST TO ALL YOU WHOEVER WHO READS MY BLOG IM NOT A FUCKING EMO SHIT ALRIGHTTTTT im just sad, well dont you have sad times too, and yes i have alot of damn problems with life but is yours any better? nah uh, so shut the fuck up and go away kkkkk plsplspls

poa killed me somehow im in heaven blogging now heee

ohoh and i stayed back in shcool to study with zhiyi and supposedly mich and ameera bt blahblah, and hmm and ezatie too, yay girls envriroment no more guys, no actually talked to joachim and kent too abt the band stuff and hmm miss jamming somehowwwwwww, ahhah, akward also, and yes also jo is playing for ger for the talent comp thingy and i wanted to hear it but didnt gt the chance too,oh and tdy i brought a guitar to shcool and everyone was giving me the eye and probably thinnking, "eh she guitarist now ah? thought drummer" oh bt luckily i was with mich, and yes the guitar is for ger actuallyyyy and my chinese paper was killing me too, i didnt bother to put it any effort coz o's for chinese are like sooo ovaaaa? oh but ss, heeee quite pleased coz i studied heh heh, and poa was so fucking screwed so fuck off please. aw. im sooo boreeeedd.

im lost, as in mindset-edly? ah fuck
and, im cynical i think im growing old and grumpy

actually i have loads to say abt all my emo fucking feelings but awww, people are talking abt me bring emoish and unable to handle SOME THINGS, awwww, talk abt freedom of speech, so fuck eh kayyyyyyy hehe, at least i dont claim like im all emo and put my fringe over my eyes, (i have nice eyes hehe its a waste if i covered it), and plugging into their big headset or earphones and listen to those emo songs, like "Life sucks, let me bleed, cold is my soul," and all the fuck? im currently listening to coldplay and electrico, ha is that emo-ish hehe, nope

oh and that day i was walking to school alone and all sad-ish over SOME PROBS electrico's song was like, i think ah if i rmbed properly, "You;re all alone tonight" and i was like, rolling my eyes and saying fuck, as if i dont know, hahhhhhhh im soooo sarcastic right now i can kill you with it hehehe
oopsie im so sorrrryyy

oh somehow im still lost after this post, heh
wow its a long boring post

2008-07-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hey God?
-silence,
Where are you Abba?I need you. Im sorry that im always needing you when im sad and when im happy i dont talk to you. I miss you alot, i miss you talking to me and making me feel like you're the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have made that effort to thank you for the happy times i have. right now i need you so much. come to me please?

My blog is very depressing. Dont read it, ill spoil your mood, your mood will be like my background,so go away...

2008-07-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

"Let your loved ones go, if they come back, their true, no point holding back on those who wanna leave."

my heart aches but i dont wanna feel like that anymore, i dont wanna hurt you physically and mentally, i dont wanna have that scary image of me crying and begging you anymore, when all you do is yell at me and want me away from your life, i hate anger, fuck anger, fuck sadness

im all stressed up, yes im stressing for O's alrdy, im sad for gail, im sad over my parents, im sad over love, im sad over my life. fuck that, i dont want all these fucking sadness, i wanna be happy, i wanna be happy, i have to go through this obstacles no matter what, i have to force myself into these, this is life, life is fucked up, yes its not a fucking bed of roses, its full of thorns to prick you till you bleed, to make you suffer, then sometimes when you're lucky, you dont gt pricked, you dont bleed, and yes its easier said that done, but fucking just live with it, its life, its fucked up

im tired, im upset, im hurt, im stressed, im sorry for everything ive done
i love you very much but worse comes to worse, ill let you go, coz if you come back, we're true

sigh actually i dont even know if i can do this? im pretending so much, God help me

i hope, you come back...

2008-07-06T22:20:00.003+08:00

Violet hill

Oh ya as you can see ive changed my blogskin to al black, why, coz im emoshit! hahahaha, whatever. I wanna buy Coldplay's new album for like the longest time and i forgot ytd when i had cash!roarrrr.

Anywaaayyy,ytd i had heaps of fun! wheheh heh. Clique outing number twoooo. Yes the whole clique was there yay! which included me germaine zhiyi gail and stacey! yay. oh and we were celebrating zhiyi's birthday too. soooo, we met late coz it was raining,inconvinient blahblah, and we were detoured when we reached esplanade coz of the ndp, so we had to walk one big round through marina square to gt to ritz carlton, was perpering profusely! arghhhh, ahahah. met Gail and her family and we went to msq againnnnnn walkwalk eateat shopshop and go back to the hotel to swim! yeh it was fun, we swam played, ok more to play... ahha, and we were steaming hahaha! in the jacuzzi'

okaaaay bathed blahblah bt nt throroughly, hmmxzz, lalalalalallalalala blahblah and so on and so forth. hahaha im bored. gail left with her family while the rest of us plus gail's sis friend,tammy joined us for dinner. we ate at this japppyyy restaurant which doesnt look anything jappy at all, haha! it was zy birthday dinner so we paid blahblah, and we were so damn full alrdy but we went toe at more! haha icecream and donuts hahaha yes we're fat pigs and tammy was like horrified. ahhaha! monsters

went to gail's house after shopping blahblah and stayed over. slumber party, hehe shall not go into details anymore lalala

alot of photos, but im very lazy to load,coz the photos are very huge

hurt, terribly.... afraid,terrified,scared

2008-07-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

i feel so helpless. im so damn sad.where's god, i need him so much now.i hate the feeling im feeling now.i dread going to school,i dont wanna see him,although i need him so much.i dont trust him anymore.i only ate two slices of brad the whole day.im about to faint.i dont feel anything.im so painful.all i feel is pain and hurt,my heart aches,i cant take this,i wanna leave this.im stupid.i wish i was strong,help me,someone pls help me.i need you so much.im crying so much,where are you where are you,having a party i suppose.you've always wnated me to feel this way,so yes i hope you;re happy now that im all emotionalsuicdalfuckeduphurtupsethorrible.i need love.

i need GOD

2008-06-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

Lord of all my days

Hello everyone. First week of school, is finally over. i must say it passed really fast and yes im exhausted! really i am... ive been studying alot. hehe. ok quite lah. but still, its a baby step

Oh well... thurs i spent it with khai! yeh huh. nothing much. (: friday i watched zohan. hilarious, really, the sexual humour is extreme. yeh but i did enjoy it! today i had church and we went shopping. nothing much though.

my post is so boring...

OHOHOH sat i went for cdc training andi thought i was gonna gt to train with the team but i gt pulled to mjc training uhhh, its another trials without ym consent. well anyway, mjc trials were tiring sey, i couldnt even let my self off guard, i had to train so much without complaining, pushing myself hard. yehhh, i didnt perform for the match i think i played very badly and i got scolded coz i said sorry when i missed and was soclded for not focusing. i very stress uh. ): oh well, some of them were pretty nice, some not reallt, haha, but sometimes i feel left out coz may and vivien wasnt there, yes in other words i was alone. but oh well. yehhuh, anyway i got into mjc alrdy... although mom doesnt want me to go, i still am gonna gt my place in mjc, but its really frustrating i have to do soooo much things like photocopying all ym damn certificates and all that which is really boring and troublesome. rar

hmmmmmmmmmmm.

school starts tmrw again.im extremely bored really.i wanna sleep forever.

haha i just heard your call by secondhand serenade on someone's profile, OLD SCHOOL SEYYYYY hahahaha

im a loving tortoise,hear me run

2008-06-25T22:39:00.003+08:00

Hi there.

Middle of the week alrdy. im so exhausted really, i barely have enough sleep, and no its nt tht i dont wana sleep, i cant sleep although im tired

So yes school started,crappy.and hmmm im starting to buck up and stuff, not to sleep in class, but i slept so much in class tdy! and ohmygod, my chinese o lvel oral is next tues. crap! blaaaaaaaaah. anyway,back to sudying, i participated in class, seems like everyone is hmm okay,trying to study.yep.and hmmxz, im trying too.

played street soccer ytd, wanted to go hme but wanted t play awhile, i scored a goal again hehehe, well it was hot and smelly and steamy^^ HAHAHA. kaaay whatever. i met bestie! haha!

Tdy, i had training after school although i was hesitating to go coz, OHHH, THE SUN, THE FEARFUL SUN, okay whatever! haha it was scary, veryveryvery hot. and so in the end i went and learned new skills, idk why coach only wanna teach us now? ahha, im trying to the bloody step over, some fake thing,and the zidane thingy, HAHA. very fun! well basics was soooo tough laaa, everything also sprint

OK IM FUCKING BORED OF MY POST SO U DONT HAVE TO READ IT

PLEASE, MIDSUMMER PLS STOP KILLING ME): ive got an assigment on midsummer to help us revise and fuck okay, the bloody internet has so little information on it. i wish shakespeare would revive from his death and come alive to enlighten me on his novels coz urghhhh its really fustrating!!! *pulls hair

dont hurt yourself anymore.im not worthit.):

2008-06-22T21:20:00.001+08:00

SCHOOL, IS OFFICIALY, STARTING TMRW
6AM WAKE UP, 715 BE IN SCHOOL.
DONT BE LATE

OHMYGOD
FREAK OUT

but yay gt to see friendsssss, i wonder whose gonna like change, comfirm everyone like gossip gossip, heh!

headache!

imu! and im sorry.

byeeeee

2008-06-22T01:34:00.001+08:00

Mood-horrible,disappointed,negative

waited the whole bloody day and this is what i got. fuck

2008-06-21T00:16:00.003+08:00

If theres anyone tht needs to go on a diet, it would fucking hell be me, so shut the fuck up about going on a diet, to all you people

i miss germaine alot.

school's starting. o levels are nearing. im not doing good

i wanna drum again but im no good.

i feel lousy

where are you when i need you

im not good im not good

i let anger get the better of me all the time

fucking cheebai

and i miss you

and i feel like history is repeating itself. im gonna get ignored again. im gonna wait again, the whole night, waking up to check my phone to see theres no message from you... oh are you gonna ignore me for 4 days again? i dont wanna get hurt anymore

2008-06-18T23:57:00.002+08:00

Please dont bother reading, i jsut felt like expressing on form of words, and i have no where else to write it.

Sigh. i dont ever wanna fall in love again. i wish i was smart enough to know right from wrong, to see whats coming and all the shortcomings. im afraid i cant take it much longer. ive been happy for the longest time from what i can remember,but recently ive started crying quite abit again and i really dont wanna go back there. im really sad. i dont wanna give my heart to anyone anymore. i dont wanna cry though im trying hard to fight back those tears now. trying hard to pretend. i wish i was storng like 2 weeks back. i wish i build my wall higher and didnt stopped building half way for you to climb over to take control of my heart once again. i dont wanna let you break my heart all over again, it just got better, it jsut got healed, sigh. i know im not and nvr gonna be the perfect gf, i once told you that, i know im no where close to it,but ill try my best to come closest to it. seems like it will nvr happen. im sorry baby. maybe you do need someone else.

i wish i was strong once again to let you go without crying

2008-06-17T01:10:00.003+08:00

Hmmmmm.

Friday,met khai.hmm, and he went for plainsunset at zouk,okay totally jealous but wtf. ahha met zy and stacey to study at macs. theyw ere showing euro cup and we were sittign below the tv so thus everyone was looking at our direction.hahah.like so distracting, everyone just bought a drink or the 5ocent ice cream and watch, its an encore btw,nt live. oh well. we did study.hahah but did talk alot too.before they came, my phone died on me and iw as there at 7 when we supposed to meet at 745. so i went to coffee bean alone and studied.peaceful.. HAHA!

Sat!!!!!!!! Plainsunset gigggg. ya didnt get to enjoy much,left halfway through the set,although managed to catch Johari window and moshed abit. ahha. wished i stayed along,sigh.wasted.

Hmmm. sunday fathers day.didnt celebrate much.just lunch.i paid for dinner at a hawker center... ahhaa thats all i can afford...

love you sry

sayonara supergirl- amateur takes control

2008-06-14T01:03:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod im so fucken annoyed and irritated nowwwww. its my bloody pms and im so fucking annoyed. can it jsut come now and get over with it? i really hate feeling like this now. im irritated by this hot weather, yes even though its the night im like perspering and i dont wanna tie my hair or ill have the mark and its so friggingggg annoying! fuck ok fuck!!! and thanks to my big mouth i might have to regret. so fuck okay fuck and yes im getting soooo bloody impatient now i wish i can just sleeeeeeeep now but no i cant becoz im so fucking annoyed! urghhhhh. okay i sound like a women in distress but YES I REALLY AM IM SO FUCKING ANNOYED SO PLEASE ARGHHH SOMEONE HELP ME! fuck!

2008-06-11T23:43:00.003+08:00

MOM SAYS ITS COOL TO VOTE

Hello everyone. im so bored. and hehe tired again. today was so fun! mich asked me along to play street soccer tdy, aha. with Michelle, Vivien and Putri, and then some guys from our shcool. okay it was fun lah, the guys like totally under estimated us or somehting. hahah. coz we were the only girls team.. yehhhh soooooo..

Hmmm, ok so take turns change team blahblah, ok heres the cool thing of the day, ahah we were playing with the outside people team ah, as in not our school people, but yeh i know tim in the team coz hes my friend blahblah, and sooo they seriously under estimated us! coz when they play with the guys its abt 5 -10mins change team alrdy, play by 2 goals? yehhh, sooo ahaha we were like on form and stuff and serious uh. oh and not to mention very rough, they didnt show any mercy to us girls, stupid bitches! ahah, so yehh, guessed hw long the match lasted? abt 40mins? ahhahaha! ONE match, btw the girls and the guys. cool right heh heh. fuck yall. anyway, they scored one goal, so it was still 1-0, ahah then guess what, i scored! HAHA I SCORED. ohmygod. hahahhaa. like i ole in, yehhh nth big, not a tournament, but an achievement for me, well sort of. ahahhaa. we were like screaming so much. well anyway we lsot the match. haha but its okay, it was fun! :]

Went to eat with khai! hehe. oh he was there too. he scored many too. hahah then i went home after that coz i was soooo tired. backache blah blah, yesyes weak.. ahah didnt warm up. sry khai couldnt go out. anyway i had tuition so i went home to sleeeeeeep man. hahah, shiok. havent studied for so long, tuition like my brain juice very very little ah... hahah i kept yawning and like uhhh... tired. ahhaha,. think my tutor hates me. haha, oh man theres school tmrw and crap..its at 930! and the timing is not fixed. like Azizah is gonna drain us till we cant take any shakespeare anymore. ):

Oh! and ytd went to Gail hse with Zhiyi and Stacey! met zy at amk to have lunch bfr heading to gail's hse. ahah, then ummm we TRIED studying. ahahha in the end we did only one poa question and started tlaking. ahhaha we havent seen each other for a long time!! yehhh, so at 6 we left and i met khaiiiii!

im so tired im gonna sleep soon, just waiting for you now

2008-06-08T20:43:00.003+08:00

Oh,My,God. I,Am,So,Fucking,Bored. I,am,Literally,Rotting,At,Home.
help me.

Anyway its sunday, i didnt go to church coz i tht id be going out but im lazy in the end, so..sorry. yes so what the helllll have i been doing the whole day, practically rotting! i woke up at 10am, and fed bean, and i slept again, and i woke up at 1pm coz of the phone call, and i ate breakfast,(yes at 2pm) and watched teevee. and phone call again, "no not going out", and watched teevee again, and switched on the lap, and watched the last part of Meet Bill and it was soooo freaking slow the buffering, and talking to peeps, and looking at the remaining post secrets,and myspacing, and praying that im nt gonna have another gastric.

oh and i think im anorexic, somehow,coz i dont eat and im not hungry,and when i do, i wanna vomit and i feel full, and when im hungry i eat, i have gastric problems. yehh gastric again.fuck.

Ohhhh, ytd was fun. I went out with Khai rul and hehehe we went to (bugis) hahaha,yehh yehh. whatever. coz i wanted to buy the shirt tht zy has and hehe i bought it alrdy.anyw i dragged khai into bugis st with me haha! i bought this long skirt coz i kinda pitied the lady. ahhaa. but hmmm, yeh and walked around and round quite boring, everythings like the same old thing. oh well. so went to the place when zy told me the shirt was selling and found it. however it wasnt 7bucks like what zy said, it was 8.90,i only managed to cut it down by 40cents. ahaha. so 17bucks for 2 shirts. ehyeh. then we went to sungei rd again, haha nth much, boring boring, went back to bugis to catch kungfu panda, sniggers* ahha, it was so funny and cute. haha. po is a huge panda and is so cute., so then i was having gastric alrd so no choice gtg home early. was home by ten. enjoyed the day alot! (:

and hehe, my leg is better now. i can run faster then some people alrdy! ahaha strong eh? XD cant wait for the damn day to end, extremely boring. two more weeks to school start, and prelims are nearing,zomg! and sigh actually id rather be busy with all the work then laze aorund and eat sleep grow fat. :O

okay im gnna be nice and upload some photos!

its supposed to be our 10th mnth tdy... ily

2008-06-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hmm, one week.

OKay monday to wed was fun! i mean like it was okay, like went to shcool and spend time with Gail, Ger, Stacey, Lennon and Sheryl on tues. ahahha, it was so fun, we went to j8 everyday after e maths and we didnt even study for e maths. we went there and laugh and talk, sing gossip and all. ahah. wow, lennon is our new best friend. :D ahahah. we started making alot jokes and played Would you rather, ahaha, which is hilarious.

Tues was hmmm, stressed...

Wed and thurs was spend resting sleeping. i am so tired everyday!!!! sigh. and so, tdy iw ent for meridien jc tryouts with May Vivien and Michelle. ahha, it was so fun. training is fun at mjc. the girls are funny. made friends here and there. Snapped and busted my foot again. ahah it hurts alot now. my feet kinda snapped, i dunno how it happened but it hurts alot!!!boooo. and i cant go for trainign tmrw. so sad uh, im always injury prone, injured here and there all the time. dad doesnt want me to play soccer, yeh right, do u think id stop? hehe.

ummm, sleep. tired. gastric. pain. confused...